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Chapter 268: This Life—The Beginning (IX)


TL: Resonance

    尚可(单方面)和尉勋进入冷战阶段, 而且冷得无懈可击。他只花了半天时间,就将小楼的安保系统和密码全部修改, 顺便还升了一下级,即使有钥匙也进不来。当初尚可为什么如此干脆地同意入住, 就是看中了这里严密的安保系统。

Shang Ke (one-sidedly) and Wei Xun entered a cold war, and it was a very cold one. It only took him half a day to change all the security systems and passwords of the building, and he even upgraded the system. Even with a key, one could not get in. The reason why Shang Ke agreed to move in so simply back then is because of the tight security system here.

    当尉勋第一次被高科技挡在门外时,心中别提有多憋屈, 同时也意识到以后再也不能愉快地闯空门。

When Wei Xun was blocked by the great technology for the first time, one could imagine how frustrated he had felt. At the same time, he also realized that he can no longer happily break in in the future.

    虽然两人是合作关系,但尚可主要负责技术, 前期建设他没必要参与。

Although the two are in partnership, Shang Ke is mainly responsible for the technological aspect. The first stage of construction had no need for him to participate.

    “尚先生,您订购的食材到了。”通讯器中传来保安的声音。

“Mr. Shang, the ingredients you ordered have arrived.” The voice of the security guard came from the communicator.

    院门打开,送货员熟门熟路地穿过小花园,将食材放到门口,然后离开。

The courtyard door opened, and the delivery man walked through the small garden familiarly. He placed the ingredients at the door and left.

    不过一会, 尚可从屋子里走出来,将门口的东西搬进去。

A moment later, Shang Ke came out of the house and carried the things at the door in.

    一个高大的身影靠在窗帘后的阴影中,默不作声地望着尚可的身影消失在门内。自从那日之后, 尚可已经连续十几天对他避而不见了。不接电话, 不回短信,除了公事上的交流,再也没有其他联系。一个人躲在家里搞研究,生活所需全靠网购。每天放风的时间,总是和他外出的时间同步。

A tall figure leaned in the shadow behind the curtain, silently watching Shang Ke’s figure disappear behind the door. Ever since that day, Shang Ke has been avoiding him for more than ten days in a row. He did not answer his phone nor reply to his messages. Other than communicating regarding their work, they had no other contacts. He stays at home alone to do research, and all his daily needs rely on online shopping. The time Shang Ke left the house is always the same as the time he went out.

    “听说你家里又给你安排了相亲?”房间中,一名凤眼男子优雅地坐在沙发上,笑着对尉勋说道,“对方好像是王家的千金?”

“I heard that your family has arranged another blind date for you?” In the room, a phoenix-eyed man sat gracefully on the sofa and said to Wei Xun with a smile, “The other party seems to be the daughter from the Wang family?”

    “嗯。”尉勋走到沙发边坐下,拿起茶几上的红酒给自己倒了半杯。

“Yeah.” Wei Xun walked over to the sofa and sat down, picked up the red wine on the coffee table and poured himself half a glass.

    “那位王小姐我也见过,人长得漂亮,还弹得一手好钢琴,性格也不错,和你倒是门当户对,郎才女貌。”

“I’ve met that Miss Wang before. She’s pretty and plays the piano well. She has a good personality too, so she’s a good match for you.”

    “你什么时候改行当媒婆了?”尉勋眉头都没动一下,兀自品着红酒。

“Since when did you change your job to become a matchmaker?” Wei Xun’s brows didn’t even move as he tasted the wine.

    纪明哲摊手:“我也没办法,受你母上大人所托,让我说服你和那位王小姐好好相处一段时间。”

Ji Mingzhe extended his hand: “I didn’t have a choice. I was asked by your mother to convince you to spend some time with Miss Wang.”

    尉勋压根记不起那位王小姐长什么样子。除了尚可,其他人的脸在他看来都和没捏好的面团一样难以分辨,眼前这位认识了十几年的至交好友也不例外。

Wei Xun could not remember what that Miss Wang looked like at all. Except for Shang Ke, everyone else’s face looked as indistinguishable as unshaped dough to him, and this best friend he had known for more than ten years was no exception.

    尉勋的脸盲症并不是天生的,而是一次意外导致的后遗症,这也是他不得不离开部队的原因。只是他平时并没有露出太多破绽,除了他的私人医生和几名贴身保镖之外,连他的父母都不知内情。

Wei Xun’s facial blindness is not natural, but an aftereffect of an accident, which is why he had to leave the army. It’s just that he did not reveal too many flaws usually, so apart from his personal doctor and a few personal bodyguards, even his parents don’t know the inside story.

    纪明哲见他不为所动,继续道:“尉勋,我们都不是相信所谓真爱的人。在适当的年纪,选择一个舒心的女人结婚也没什么不好。你今年34了,还打算拖多久?”

When Ji Mingzhe saw that he was unmoved, he continued: “Wei Xun, none of us are people who believe in the so-called true love. There is nothing wrong with choosing a woman you are comfortable with to marry at the right age. You’re 34 this year, how long do you plan to delay?”

    真爱,尉勋确实不相信。但是让他时刻都想拖上床的人,他已经找到了一个。念头一起,脑中立刻浮现那人在他身下辗转承欢的诱人模样,眼神也不自觉暗了几分。

True love. Indeed, Wei Xun does not believe in it. However, he has already found a person he wants to drag to the bed all the time. The moment the thought came to his mind, the person’s tantalizing appearance under his body immediately came to mind, and his eyes unconsciously darkened a little.

    正在这时,口袋中手机响起。尉勋接起来听了一会,然后起身道:“走,和我去见一个人。”

At this moment, the phone in his pocket rang. After picking it up and listening to it for a while, Wei Xun got up and said, “Come on, let’s go see someone with me.”

    纪明哲不明所以地跟着他走了出去。

Ji Mingzhe followed him out in confusion.

    尚可刚刚丢完垃圾,转身就看到一个熟悉的身影挡在他家门口。

Shang Ke had just finished throwing away the garbage when he turned around and saw a familiar figure blocking the doorway of his house.

    尉勋?他不是开车出去了吗?什么时候回来的?

Wei Xun? Didn’t he drive out? When did he come back?

    尚可下意识朝他家的停车坪望去,并没有看见他的车子。

Shang Ke subconsciously looked towards the parking pad of his house but did not see his car.

    “我坐朋友的回来的。”尉勋像是看穿了他的心思,解释了一句。

“I came back in my friend’s car.” As if reading his mind, Wei Xun explained.

    尚可:……居然还有这一招,大意了。

Shang Ke: … He actually had this trick, he had been careless.

    “尉勋,这位是?”纪明哲好奇地打量尚可,对他出众的样貌颇有些惊艳。

“Wei Xun, this is?” Ji Mingzhe looked at Shang Ke curiously, and was quite amazed at his outstanding appearance.

    “他就是机器人的研发者,尚可。”尉勋介绍道,“可可,这位是科技园的投资人之一,纪明哲。”

“He is the developer of the robot, Shang Ke.” Wei Xun introduced, “Keke, this is one of the investors of the science park, Ji Mingzhe.”

    “你好。”尚可礼貌地和他握了握手。

“Hello.” Shang Ke shook his hand politely.

    “马上就要到饭点,方便请我们去你家吃个饭吗?”尉勋特意将纪明哲拉上,就是笃定尚可不会在有外人的情况下拒绝他。

“It’s almost mealtime, is it convenient for you to invite us to your house for a meal?” Wei Xun purposely brought Ji Mingzhe here because he was sure that Shang Ke would not refuse him in front of outsiders.

    果然,尚可同意了。

As expected, Shang Ke agreed.

    尉勋靠上前,状似无意地搭上他腰。

Wei Xun leaned forward and seemingly unintentionally put his hand on his waist.

    纪明哲无意中瞥见,虽然心中有些怪异,却也没往深处想,只是有些意外尉勋居然会对一个外人如此亲近。

Ji Mingzhe inadvertently caught a glimpse. Although he felt it was strange in his heart, he did not think too deeply about it. He was just surprised that Wei Xun was being so intimate with an outsider.

    一顿丰盛的午餐,吃得纪明哲赞不绝口,对尉勋可以天天过来蹭饭表示万分羡慕。须不知某人已经很久没吃过尚可亲手做的美食,这次还是托他的福才有幸得偿所愿。

They had a sumptuous lunch, causing Ji Mingzhe to be full of praise and was very envious of Wei Xun who could come here every day for a meal. However, he did not know that a certain person has not eaten Shang Ke’s food for a long time and was lucky to get what he wanted thanks to him.

    午餐结束,纪明哲的利用价值也没有了。趁尚可泡茶的空档,尉勋毫不留情地将他“送”了出去。

Once lunch is over, Ji Mingzhe’s use is gone. Taking the opportunity when Shang Ke was making tea, Wei Xun “sent” him out unceremoniously.

    走进厨房,尉勋悄无声息地来到尚可身后,伸手环住他的腰,在他耳边低声道:“闹够了吗?”

When he walked into the kitchen, Wei Xun quietly came behind Shang Ke, hugged his waist and whispered in his ear, “Have you had enough?”

    尚可动作一顿,随后继续将茶水蓄满。

Shang Ke movement paused, then he continued to fill up the teapot.

    “我允许你偶尔闹一下脾气,但不要闹得太过。”尉勋轻轻啃咬他的耳朵。

“I’ll allow you to have a tantrum once in a while, but don’t overdo it.” Wei Xun gently nibbled on his ear.

    “尉勋。”尚可转身面对他,“你到底是想要一个值得信赖的合作伙伴,还是一个听话的床伴?”

“Wei Xun.” Shang Ke turned to face him, “Do you want a trustworthy partner, or an obedient bed partner?”

    “都要。”尉勋毫不犹豫地回答。

“I want both.” Wei Xun replied without hesitation.

    尚可咬牙:“人不能太贪心。”

Shang Ke gritted his teeth, “One cannot be too greedy.”

    “我有贪心的本钱不是吗?”

“I have the capital to be greedy, don’t I?”

    尚可:好想在这张傲慢的脸上拍一巴掌。

Shang Ke: I want to slap this arrogant face so badly.

    “这样吧……”

“How about this…”

    尉勋低头,堵住了他后面的话。

Wei Xun lowered his head and blocked the words he was about to say.

    “可可。”尉勋一边舔弄他的舌头,一边沙哑道,“不要再把我锁在门外,否则以后只要被我逮到一次,我就狠狠做一次,至少让你三天下不了床。”

“Keke.” Wei Xun said hoarsely while licking and fondling his tongue, “Don’t lock me out again, or I’ll do you so hard that you won’t be able to get out of bed for at least three days every time I catch you in the future.”

    “你!”

“You!”

    不待尚可发怒,尉勋已经将他压倒厨房玻璃门上……

Not waiting for Shang Ke to get angry, Wei Xun had already pinned him down on the glass door of the kitchen ……

    窗外,纪明哲瞪大眼睛,不敢置信地看着正在厨房中纠缠的两个人,忍不住后退几步。

Outside the window, Ji Mingzhe stared in disbelief at the two people who were tangling in the kitchen and could not help but take a few steps back.

    他刚才被尉勋莫名其妙地推出去,原本想绕到厨房和尚可告个别,结果却看到如此惊悚的一幕。尉勋利用身体优势将尚可牢牢压制,一条腿插进他的双腿间,两只手在他身上肆掠,上衣被粗鲁地扯开,露出大片肌肤。尚可的挣扎在尉勋强大的力量下毫无作用,泛红的双颊,让原本就很俊美的容貌,更显艳丽。眉目间,透着一种难以言喻的魅惑。

He had just been inexplicably pushed out by Wei Xun. He originally wanted to go around to the kitchen to say goodbye to Shang Ke but ended up seeing such a frightening scene. Wei Xun made use of his advantages body build to hold Shang Ke firmly in place. Wei Xun had a leg between his legs and two hands on his body. Shang Ke’s shirt was crudely ripped open, revealing a large area of skin. Shang Ke’s struggle was useless under the powerful strength of Wei Xun, and his red cheeks made his already handsome appearance even more gorgeous. His eyebrows exuded an inexplicable charm.

    纪明哲只觉得口干舌燥,不敢再继续往下看,匆忙从花园中冲了出去。在他离开后,一个身影从树后走出来,默默注视着小楼的方向……

Ji Mingzhe only felt that his mouth was dry and did not dare to look any further. He hurriedly rushed out from the garden. After he left, a figure came out from behind a tree and silently watched in the direction of the small building…

    尚可又一次原谅了尉勋,只要想到他为自己承受了千百世的孤老和生离死别的痛苦,自己便无法狠心疏远他。只是这一世的他实在太难沟通,一言不合就强来,好像几辈子都没做过爱一样。

Shang Ke forgave Wei Xun once again. As long as the thought of him suffering for himself for a thousand lifetimes of loneliness and the pain of parting because of life and death, he was not able to ruthlessly alienate from him. It is just that in this life, he was too difficult to communicate with. The moment there is a disagreement, Wei Xun would start doing him, as if he hadn’t made love in several lifetimes.

    考虑再三后,尚可决定和他约法三章,一周最多一次,做的时候必须戴套;工作期间一次不准超过三个小时,做爱地点只能在家;有什么重要的事情必须先和他商量,不准擅自做主。

After considering it again and again, Shang Ke decided to make a deal with him. They could only do it at most once a week. When doing so, he must wear a condom; He is not allowed to exceed three hours during work time, and sex can be done only at home; If there are any important things, he must discuss with him first and not make decisions on his own.

    尉勋看过之后,将一次改成“五次”,三小时改成“五小时”,做爱地点从“只能在家”改成“任何隐蔽场所”。至于最后一点,倒是没有提出异议。

After reading it, Wei Xun changed once to “five times”, three hours to “five hours”, and the place of sex from “only at home” to “any secluded place”. The place of sex was changed from “only at home” to “any hidden place”. As for the last point, there was no objection.

    尚可说:“我已经让步了,你却依然咄咄逼人,完全不给我一点喘息的空间。尉勋,你是希望我们像朋友一样相处,还是希望我把你当仇人一般怨恨?”

Shang Ke said: “I have already given in, but you are still aggressive and do not give me any breathing room at all. Wei Xun, do you want us to get along like friends, or do you want me to treat you like an enemy with resentment?”

    尉勋沉默了许久,最后虽然什么都没说,却也不再坚持己见。

Wei Xun was silent for a long time, and finally, although he did not say anything, he stopped insisting on his own opinion.

    两人达成统一,开始保持表面和谐默契、私下暗通款曲的情人关系。尽管有了小小突破,但尉勋依然把人盯得死紧,主要是为了防范戚辰。自从那次通话后,戚辰再也没有和尚可见过面,只是偶尔手机联系,尉勋却不敢掉以轻心,因为戚辰和尚可的关系,实在太容易越界了。

The two of them reached a consensus and started to maintain harmonious relationship of tacit understanding but a lovers’ relationship in secret. Despite the small breakthrough, Wei Xun still kept a close eye on him, mainly to guard against Qi Chen. Ever since that call, Qi Chen never met with Shang Ke again, only calling occasionally. However, Wei Xun dares not let down his guard, because it is too easy to cross the line the with Qi Chen and Shang Ke’s relationship.

    几个月后,尚可的专利顺利通过审核。科技园也完成了规划,正在如火如荼的建设中。与此同时,初号的核心程序调试完毕,第一个宠物机器人正式诞生。事实上,初号更趋向于综合型全能机器人,功能全面,智能优越。在此基础上进行分区调整,可以快速研发出其他功能的机器人。

A few months later, Shang Ke’s patent successfully passed the application. The science park also completed its planning and construction was in full swing. At the same time, the core program of Chu Hao was debugged, and the first pet robot was officially born. In fact, Chu Hao was more of a comprehensive all-rounder robot, with comprehensive functions and superior intelligence. By doing adjustments using this as the basis, robots with other functions could be quickly developed.

    一切似乎都进展得十分顺利,然而就在尉勋出国参加商会时,尚可出事了。

Everything seemed to be going very well. However, just when Wei Xun left the country to attend the Chamber of Commerce, something happened to Shang Ke.

    当他从昏睡中醒来时,发现自己正躺在一个湿热的巷子中,空气中弥漫着难闻的臭味。巷子十分狭窄,外面的阳光也射不进来。

When he woke up from his sleep, he found himself lying in a hot and humid alley with an unpleasant stench in the air. The alley was very narrow, and the sunlight from outside could not reach in.

    有那么一瞬间,尚可差点以为自己又穿越了。顺着墙壁爬起来,感觉全身都在发疼,好像曾经遭受了多次碰撞。撩开衬衣,果然看到皮肤上有几块深浅不一的青肿。

For a moment, Shang Ke almost thought he had transmigrated again. He climbed up with the support of the wall and his whole body felt sore, as if he had suffered multiple collisions. Lifting his shirt, he saw several bruises of varying shades on his skin as expected.

    记忆逐渐回笼,尚可想起自己昏迷前,正在前往临城的飞机上。因为接到一个科技博览会的邀请,所以他带着保镖出发了。他以为这份邀请是尉勋给他送来的,飞机也是事先定好的头等舱,所以并没有疑心。等他发现不对劲时,已经来不及了。

His memory gradually returned, and Shang Ke remembered that before he passed out, he was on a plane to Lincheng. Because he received an invitation to a technology expo, he set off with his bodyguard. He thought this invitation was sent to him by Wei Xun, and the plane was a pre-booked first class, so he did not suspect anything. By the time he realized that something was wrong, it was too late.

    很显然,这是一个专门针对他的、有预谋的计划。那个保镖是关键,他是尉勋公司旗下的保全人员,只有他能够不被怀疑地接近他。而能够指使他的人,恐怕也只有尉勋的……家人。

It was obvious that this was a premeditated plan that was specifically aimed at him. The bodyguard was the key. He was a security officer under Wei Xun’s company, and only he was able to approach him without being suspected. And the only person who could direct him was probably Wei Xun’s… family.

    按照这个思路推测,尉家的人可能早就发现他和尉勋的关系了,只是一直隐忍不发,直到他的初号研制完成,提供了核心代码后,才开始动手。只要拥有核心代码,即使没有他,其他技术员也能研究出不少成果。

Based on this line of thought, speculation, the Wei family’s people may have long discovered his relationship with Wei Xun but had kept quiet about it until after the development of his Chu Hao was completed. They started making a move only after he provided the coding for the core. As long as they have the core code, even without him, the other technicians can still research a lot of results.

    尚可面无表情,步履蹒跚地走出巷子,适应了刺眼的阳光后,这才看清眼前的一切。街道上来来往往大多都是皮肤黝黑、五官突出的外国人。四周房屋破旧不堪,街边杂乱地摆放着各种摊位,吆喝声、咒骂声不绝于耳,炙热的空气,让人感觉无比窒息。

Shang Ke’s face was expressionless as he stumbled out of the alley. After adapting to the blinding sunlight, he finally saw everything before him clearly. The streets were mostly populated by foreigners with dark skin and prominent features. The houses around are dilapidated, the streets are cluttered with stalls of all kinds, the sound of yelling and cursing is incessant, and the hot air makes people feel incomparably suffocated.

    不得不说,会叫的狗不咬人。对方连面都没露,就把他这个隐患处理掉了。将他丢在贫穷落后、语言不通的异国他乡,被弄死了与他们毫无关系,侥幸活下来也没法指证。对方只要利用他的证件,让别人以为他是自己出国的就行了。

One had to say that the dog was all bark but no bite. The other side did not even show their faces and just disposed him, the hidden danger. The person left him in a foreign country which was poor and backward and did not speak the same language. Even if he were killed, it had nothing to do with them, and he could not testify even if he survived. The other side just needs to use his documents to make people think that he left the country on his own.

    尚可独自站在陌生的街道上,身无分文,孤立无援。

Shang Ke stood alone in an unknown street, penniless and isolated.

    然而,在这种绝境下,他却笑了。

However, in this desperate situation, he smiled.


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25 thoughts on “[HDS] Chapter 268: This Life—The Beginning (IX)

  1. Tokyo Goul says:

    Okay I will give my opinion, it’s not truly ML’s fault for being a scum. Now this may backfire on me but you got too understand that love makes people go crazy. Sometimes too the point that they may end up like a yandere (possible). So I agree you must need consent because you can’t rape someone without there word at all but if you saw your lover die, so many times. I’m surprised that he is mental stable he would have gone crazy or hurt somone maybe even left himself too die. I feel bad for the ML for he is fighting and trying not too lock Keke up in a cage. Because he would actually do it given the chance but he loves him too much to do that.
    Some are right but understand from his view point let’s now hate him at the last second for love is powerful and one can lose there way. We can hate how he goes about it but feeling pity and how it’s turning out for him. You can only hope that he does not lose his away as a scum for he may lose Keke.

    Thank you for Translating this story.
    I feel like the author wanted too say something but in there own way.

    • Shane says:

      Have you even read the past chapters? He said he wanted an obedient bed partner. Hah. If that’s what you consider “love for multiple lifetimes”, we may have to reconstruct that disturbing viewpoint.

      Sure, let’s say he’s suffered so much all throughout, but it doesn’t lessen the fact or justify that He. Is. A. Rapist. If the author made his character a rapist for some plot, then I got to say that’s poorly written.

      He has only been showing his feeling of lust and domination to Keke. It’s not love. Wake up.

      • Blubb says:

        I think his problem is that ML as he has said “doesn’t believe in love” and he has a personality which is usually not disturbed by emotion. Plus his environment doesn’t seem to be the loving kind as well. Him being a sex maniac may be the only way he knows how to express his feelings.
        Moreover he currently (probably) doesn’t think that Keke is in love with him and all his thoughts are on how to monopolize Keke and somehow keep him by his side. So he’s eventually taking the ‘if not the heart take the body’-approach to get closer and bind Keke to him.

        I agree with Tokyo Goul that it’s already amazing that he didn’t go total crazy and that his need of keeping Keke by his side at all costs are understandable. And now he has those dream which are probably some kind of memories from the past lives. But they aren’t clear and only leaving him even more insecure and desperate and it might even be confusing.
        He’s always been scummy and rapey and absolutely no role model. If you ever meet someone like him in rl- run. ( btw that goes for a lot of MLs from the BL genre)

        But he does love Keke and since Keke loves him back let them be. Keke is currently trying to train him and I believe that the ML will change for the better as soon as he can gain more security and understanding of emotions.

        The ‘wanting to have an obedient bedpartner’ should also not be taken as seriously. He meant that but he also wants a good relationship. He’s always had his head filled with sperm so of course he would like to have harmonious sex whenever he wants to but I don’t believe he meant it like Keke’s only use should be his personal hole.

        It’s a very obsessive love and Keke himself said that both of them are not normal. But they’re happy together so what.

        IF the ML won’t change until the end then I will be disappointed but for now let’s see how it turns out.

        • Shane says:

          I agree with waiting until the end of the arc to see how it all plays out. BUT. A plot that’s written like:

          ML suffers for multiple lifetimes. His repressed emotions turn violent as he rapes his lover multiple times even as his lover tells him to stop.

          Okay, so he also has a bad environment and strict parents, yet a full grown adult- who’s a working business man with successful feats AND who is always socially exposed- can’t figure out how unlawful, disgusting, inhumane, and repulsive rape is? He is a fully grown man with a functioning brain. If this is how we justify rape, then I’m not about to be part of this shady business.

          All in all, it doesn’t diminish the fact that it’s poor characterization, especially for readers who were expecting ✨character development✨ and not ✨character undevelopment✨

          The arc is not finished yet, but a good story shows you good characters with a full character arc showing signs of progression with their setbacks and overcoming said setbacks. It is especially noted for main characters like this ML!

        • Tokyo Goul says:

          Thank you, and like I said before I knew this may backfire but I hope he will change for the best. I know the story is already over but it was amazing even if the ML was a scum. I loved every second of this story I don’t truly side with the ML with everything he has done. I hope every can have a nice future and be happy that you don’t have there story because that would be sad and miserable for anyone too do that. I look at a view point so cherish what you have is what I’m getting from this story. Be happy with your loved ones.

    • Tanyingzhan says:

      i have a feeling that wei xun actually isn’t the real one, maybe he’s the mole who only ever lived with keke through the main body’s memories, which lead to him repressing his desires and feelings, and all of that just burst open. he’s obsessive cuz he doesn’t want the original body to have keke, i mean it has happended b4 in the ghost assistant arc, right?

    • kira says:

      Just pointing out that “love” is the excuse of every domestic/marital rapist ever. And also that it’s illegal in all but 36 countries in the world.

      … But well China’s one of those 36… So I guess it’s ok.

    • drenlith says:

      Uhm, locking him up because of his fragility and fear of losing him sounds like poor excuse to act like the tyrannical scum that he is.
      He’s never shown him the ounce of respect he deserves, hates his competency and independence and that he’s not a complete cripple without him, ML.
      He’s always chosen to give up everything around him including himself once MC passes away, including people MC cared for, people like Pupu or Waves. He doesn’t try to give love only possess love. He’s self centered not only in a way in their relationship but on a whole. I hate how he treats MC all the time like a lump of flesh to fuck when he’s saying something or wants to be taken seriously. Instead of holding someone like that dearly to you especially after all the losses, he’s ready stomp around MC’s bottom line any time.
      MC has his own share of blame to carry for indulging him like that. It’s unhealthy to say the least, and people who also excusing that, y’all need help and some Jesus in your lives.

  2. Applepie2334 says:

    ML you are still scum. Love is about trust and needs independence for personal growth.

  3. Tattletail says:

    My dao of hitting the 404 wall has increased once again

  4. Shane says:

    I’m confused. Am I missing some bigger plot here? Is the ML’s rapist personality some type of obscure plot that has yet to be unraveled in this arc? I don’t even think he has other feelings for Keke besides lust. Is he really the ML we’ve had all throughout the novel?

    • Liar says:

      Yeah, I’m super confused too. I really don’t like this rapist personality of his. It’s extremely disturbing and it makes me very uncomfortable

    • Killgori says:

      I swear! After going through such consistent arcs, this is where the author has left us off to. Pretty nice to leave it that generations of love finally made the ML only capable of lust?! Honestly so dissapointed and disgusted.
      Thanks for the Chapter though translators. You are doing some hard work.

      • Pearlofthemoon says:

        I have been an avid follower of the novel, trying to figure out the many nuances that the author has brought to the forefront. Many transmigration novels have rushed endings that made little sense. However, the ML in this series had changed and I dont like it. Non-con is a serious offense….
        but…
        Is this the real ML? Since the MLs soul is scattered between the world’s, one part controlling the “lamp” and one that exists in the worlds without memory. It was explained that the reason they had to reincarnated was something along the lines of proving their their love transcended the physical, spiritual and psychological.
        I think that the ML in this arc is not fully “there”. The pieces that still operate the “lamp” have the memories of their past, have the emotional sympathy, and the love accumulated over lifetimes, and the ML in this arc is the soul piece that is scummy, irrational, possessive and oppressive. Characteristics that are “negative” in which was the only way for the MLs soul to travel to different worlds. Two sides of the same coin, to be exact.
        I hope this is the case, as I definitely want to see the ML I had been rooting for this entire time.

  5. Kosmo says:

    Ah he’s finally free to develop his power! Go keke!!!

    Also I actually quite like Qi Chen, he’s kinda cute ^^ i want him to act spoiled with keke moooreee! Hopefully his awakening(?) will have some interesting results!

  6. Noelia Lopez says:

    Okay, to be honest, at this point I think Wei Xun isn’t “in love” with Shang Ke, he is obsessed with him. His other incarnations have gone though a process of trying to understand what they feel and why they that way about Shang Ke because none of them remember their past lives. I’ll direct you to the AxA arc and My Heart Beats For You arc as examples. Sometimes, by default, the ML in a particular life has no frame of reference for a healthy relationship, as I suspect is the case here. He has facial blindness and only recognizes Shang Ke, and his family seems to control his personal life. I can see why he would act desperately.

    At the same time though, he has said and done some unforgivable shit so I look forward to the upcoming chapters where he has to suffer because of his terrible, cowardly decisions. What just happened is entirely Wei Xun’s fault.

  7. Quiru says:

    I feel like instead of Wei Xun, Qi Chen is the male lead. Idk, but at the end of the previous chapter, it seems like Qi Chen is remembering something.

    The flashes of memories.

    If that isn’t enough evidence to support that there is a possibility that Qi Chen is the real male lead and Wei Xun is just there to stir up trouble.

    Although some of the male leads from the previous arcs have a bad start with Shang Ke, none of them were this scummy.

    I don’t like Wei Xun, please let it be Qi Chen. The author can’t be this cruel to suddenly write a scummy male lead.

  8. MeganError says:

    I dont care with other but i want to kill this ML so badly!! Keke didnt deserve this scum at all.

  9. milk says:

    His so called love is just obsession at this point. Even so, I want to believe the author is writing him as a rapist for some god damned reason. Frustrated with Keke too, sure you love each other, but does that validate threats and rape? 🙁 wish he could be harder on his “lover” sometimes but then again the ML would just get more violent. Where did my cute, smart, hurt-my-heart-more couple go, cries.

  10. ahriagaesushi says:

    I want to skin someone (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

    • ahriagaesushi says:

      I think the ML is not mentally stable here again in this arc. I bet his family too are not right in the head. You see, for a good child to grow well and nice you need to put them in a environment that will cause some good effects on them. I just want to remember all the past arcs. And this Wei Xun here is the worst among all of them. From the first chapter of this arc, I find it hard to understand why did he became so ooc all of a sudden. Like he was scum alright, but not this scum who will knock out your door and do that horrible thing.
      I just want to deceive my self that something happened and this ML is——
      This is hopeless. I just want to punch him, if this continues I would just want the fragment of his soul. The mole one, I cried so much for that dude. Imma dissect you and pull your soul out and replace it you fcker.

  11. Shenshn says:

    Why do I feel like I went into another novel? I was shocked by how different he’s portrayed in here.

  12. Jd says:

    I can’t express the amount of disappointment I have experienced in this arc- which i believe is supposed to be the concluding arc for this story. Why is the very last arc the worst arc with the worst version of the ml? And I agree with the comments- what I’m seeing here isn’t love for the Mc, but lust. The only thing they seem to do is have sex, and in this arc none of it is consensual. Does the ml not care about the mcs feelings? Does he not care for his opinion or care that the Mc might hate him? It doesn’t seem like he has any respect for the Mc and solely wants him as a bed partner who never communicates to others outside of the ml himself. Besides the “evil pen” arc, all other arcs from what I remember had pretty decent mls. I especially loved the A+A arc due to the mls character development in that world- going from lust and pheromones to pure love and respect for the other as the work and protect one another.

    But this is by far the worst version of ml. The Mc is also irritating me with how he isn’t standing up more for himself and constantly forgiving the dumb ml. It was just like in the “I am an evil pen” arc, where Mc literally told ml that forced love is also a type of love and is okay to use and isn’t any different from other types of love- as long as this forced love has “satisfactory results” than it’s fine. I hated the beginning of that arc, and I am hating this arc even more. Hope we see some development in these last few chapters.

  13. enkma says:

    srsly i feel like all the ML want is seggs. the last few arcs were all about him lusting

  14. puerileworries says:

    ba da da da ba dum da da
    just fucking kill Wei Xun!~

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