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Chapter 32: It Will Never Come True
TL: Resonance
“你特地买给我的？”阮夜笙晃了晃药油。
“You bought it specifically for me?” Ruan Yesheng shook the medicinal oil.
奚墨坐回来, 面不改色说：“我背疼，买回来给我自己揉的，你膝盖疼的话，也可以用用。”
Xi Mo sat back down. Her expression remained unchanged as she said, “My back hurts. I bought it back so that I can use it myself. You can also use it if your knee hurts.”
“你背疼？是拍打戏时伤到了？”阮夜笙听了, 先是一愣，赶紧问她情况。别看她平常对着奚墨能嘴炮专业十级，这会一听奚墨说个“疼”字她就紧张得不得了，变成关心专业十级。
“Your back hurts? Did you hurt it during the filming?” After hearing this, Ruan Yesheng was taken aback for a moment and quickly asked her about her situation. Ruan Yesheng usually faced Xi Mo with a professional level 10 cannon-like mouth, but when she heard Xi Mo say the word ‘hurt’, she became very nervous and the level 10 cannon turned into a level 10 concern.
不过问完立刻后悔了。她打量了一下奚墨的神色, 那完全是一股子熟悉的骄矜，身板也挺得跟竹竿似的笔直，从头到尾哪有一星半点背疼的迹象。
But she regretted it immediately after asking. She measured Xi Mo’s state and saw that she was still completely in her usual prideful state. Her body frame was as straight as a bamboo pole without a hint of backache from beginning until the end.
奚墨还在那继续端着脸色：“我拍戏要吊威亚，能不疼么？”
Xi Mo’s expression remained unchanged as she said, “I have to hang on wires when I’m filming, how can it not hurt?”
说完又眼神示意了下那瓶药油：“不过这瓶你留着用吧, 我可以再去买一瓶。”
After speaking, her eyes motioned to the bottle of medicinal oil, “But you can keep this bottle. I can buy another one.”
阮夜笙既然明白过来, 刚才那股子担心劲自然就下去了, 笑道：“可是即使你这么说，我也还是觉得这是你专门买给我的。”
Now that Ruan Yesheng understood, her previous worries naturally went away. She said with a smile, “But even if you say that, I still think that you bought it specifically for me.”
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
你还真是不矜持！
You really have no restrain at all!
“我看你刚才挺疼的样子, 要不现在就上个药。”奚墨扫了个眼风过去。
“You seemed to be in quite a bit of pain earlier. Why not apply the oil now?” Xi Mo glanced over.
之后好像要补充说句什么, 顿了顿, 又没说了，只是坐在椅子上不动了。
Afterwards, she seemed to have wanted to say something more. However, she paused for a moment and ended up not saying anything. She sat back on her chair and no longer moved.
阮夜笙阅读完药油瓶背后的说明, 将自己坐的椅子稍微挪开了一些，换个方向坐着, 弯腰把裙子慢慢提着往上捞起来。天气炎热, 膝盖有伤不能露出来, 穿长裤去遮的话又怕容易磨到瘀伤，洗完澡后她特地换了一条到小腿的长裙子。
After reading the instructions on the back of the medicinal oil bottle, Ruan Yesheng moved the chair she was sitting on slightly and sat facing a different direction. She then bent down and slowly lifted her skirt up. The weather was hot, but she couldn’t show her knees because there were injuries. She was afraid that wearing trousers to cover up the bruise would make it worse with the friction, so she purposely put on a long skirt that reached her calf after she showered.
她也不避讳什么，直接将裙子一路往上拨，当下撩出了一片白皙柔嫩的腿际肌肤。裙摆堆叠在腿上，被她小心地拢了拢，再用左手臂压着以防掉下去。
She didn’t shy away from anything and just pulled the skirt up all the way, immediately revealing the fair and delicate-looking legs underneath. The hem of the skirt was stacked on her leg and held carefully by her before she pressed it down with her left arm to prevent it from falling.
奚墨看她捞起裙子的动作，下意识就要移开目光，转念一想那本来就是自己的腿，从小看到大，还有什么不能看的，顿时又觉得有种微妙的气定神闲，她见阮夜笙压着裙子不好拧瓶盖，于是替阮夜笙拧开药油，递到她左手里。
When Xi Mo saw her lifting up the skirt, she subconsciously looked away. Then, she thought about the fact that those legs were originally hers and calmed down with a strange mood. She has seen them ever since she was young, why can’t she look at them? Seeing that Ruan Yesheng was pressing on her skirt and it was difficult for her to twist open the bottle cap, she opened the medicinal oil for Ruan Yesheng and handed it to her left hand.
阮夜笙接过来，保持这个左臂压裙摆，左手指攥瓶子的弯腰姿势，将药油滴到右手掌心，之后继续就着这个有点别扭的姿势开始给膝盖抹药油。
Ruan Yesheng received the bottle. While keeping her left arm pressed against her skirt, she poured a few drops of medicinal oil on her right palm with her left hand while in her bent posture. After that, she continued to apply medicinal oil on her knees in this somewhat awkward position.
奚墨本来就比阮夜笙要高一点，这副身子身高腿长的，坐着的时候与这餐厅椅子的高度不是很适合，膝盖那片瘀伤面积又大，从阮夜笙这个弯腰角度去处理，相对还是不那么方便。涂抹倒还没事，只是涂完之后还要按照说明搓揉很久，长时间保持这个动作还是很累的。
Xi Mo is a bit taller than Ruan Yesheng, so her body is taller and has long legs. The height of the chair in this restaurant is not very suitable for her body’s height to sit, and the bruises on her knees were big. It is relatively inconvenient to deal with the bruise from the angle Ruan Yesheng was bending. Applying the oil itself is relatively easy. However, after applying it, she has to follow the instructions and rub on the bruise for a long time. Maintaining this action for a long time is very tiring.
奚墨见她捣鼓了一会，似乎有点束手束脚的，就说：“你过来点。”
After seeing Ruan Yesheng work at it for a moment with some struggle, Xi Mo said, “Come closer.”
阮夜笙听她的话停了手，撩着裙摆贴靠了过去，脸和脸相隔的距离很近，甚至能闻到奚墨身上的香味。
Ruan Yesheng stopped her hands after hearing her words. She held the hem of her skirt and leaned over, her face coming very close to Xi Mo’s face to the point she could smell Xi Mo’s scent.
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
“我是说你的腿。”奚墨一字一顿道。
“I meant your legs.” Xi Mo said word by word.
“你说清楚点，不然我会误会的，以为你要做什么。”阮夜笙眼角的光似有似无地勾了奚墨一眼，退回身子，往奚墨那边挪动了下椅子，将腿并起来。
“You have to be clearer, otherwise I will misunderstand and think about what you are going to do.” The light in Ruan Yesheng’s eyes seemingly hooked at Xi Mo. Then, Ruan Yesheng withdrew. She shifted her chair closer to Xi Mo and positioned her legs close together.
奚墨让她这次只是捞着裙子坐下就好，阮夜笙倒也听话，乖乖坐着不动，奚墨坐在她对面那条椅子上，弯下腰开始替她揉药油。
Xi Mo told her to just sit down and hold her skirt. Ruan Yesheng was quite obedient and sat still. Xi Mo sat on the chair opposite her and bent her back down to help Ruan Yesheng rub the oil.
阮夜笙低头，目光怔怔地看着奚墨头顶的发旋，长发披散在她背上，这个角度也看不到脸。
Ruan Yesheng lowered her head and stared blankly at the hair swirling on the top of Xi Mo’s head. Her long hair is draped on her back and her face was not visible from this angle.
但是阮夜笙却可以清晰地听见自己的心跳，脑海里浮现奚墨的面容。
However, Ruan Yesheng could hear her own heartbeat clearly, and Xi Mo’s face appeared in her mind.
她的面容那么漂亮。
She has such a beautiful face.
让阮夜笙觉得此刻占据了她这具美丽躯壳的自己，是多么罪恶。
This made Ruan Yesheng feel how sinful it is to occupy Xi Mo’s beautiful body at this moment.
奚墨并不知道阮夜笙在想什么，专心致志地替她揉着瘀伤。
Xi Mo didn’t know what Ruan Yesheng was thinking and concentrated on helping Ruan Yesheng rub her bruises.
只是这药油搓揉起来本来就会很疼，后面奚墨在几个点使了些力道，阮夜笙实在忍不住，回过神来的时候早已经没控制地出声：“……啊……啊嗯。”
Unfortunately, it hurts when the medicinal oil is rubbed on the bruises. Towards the back, Xi Mo used some strength to rub on the bruises. Ruan Yesheng really couldn’t help it, and before she noticed, she had already uttered uncontrollably. “… Ah… Ah nn.”
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
她保持弯腰搓揉的姿势，抬头看了阮夜笙一眼。
She maintained her bent posture as she rubbed on the bruises but looked up at Ruan Yesheng.
阮夜笙：“……”
Ruan Yesheng: “…”
刚才这声音实在是太酥麻了。而这嗓音是属于奚墨的，本身是凉柔的那种感觉，很好听，平常奚墨高傲，不免又带了些冷淡矜贵的味道，但是如今到了阮夜笙这，就变成了一抹婉转娇吟。
The sound just now was just too numbing. Furthermore, this voice belonged originally to Xi Mo and was the cool and soft type which sounds very nice. Xi Mo is usually arrogant and can’t help but bring out the coldness and nobleness of her voice. But now when it comes to Ruan Yesheng, it becomes a touch of tenderness.
奚墨本来就是专业演戏的，台词功底出众，以前拍戏都是她自己配音，根本用不到配音演员。有时候国外卖座的动画大电影在中国上映，片方为了吸引人气和制作噱头，还会砸重金邀请她去给其中的角色作中文版配音，声线风格改变不在话下，这种酥魂软骨的声音奚墨也完全是可以做到。她在电影“倾城”里就饰演了一个倾城风骨的女人，戏里她就是用这种嗓音语气说话，妩媚勾人，但是这种声音绝不会在她的生活中出现。
Xi Mo has always been professional in her acting and has outstanding skills with reciting her lines. She has always used her own voice for filming and had no need for voice actors for dubbing at all. Sometimes, when a great foreign blockbuster animation movie is released in China, the film crew will also spend a lot of money inviting her to dub one of the characters in the Chinese version in order to attract popularity and publicity. There is no problem at all in changing her voice style and Xi Mo is able to create this kind of soft and melting voice as well. She played an alluring woman in the movie “Fallen City”. In the movie, she also spoke in this charming way. However, this kind of voice will never appear in her real life.
奚墨绷着脸道：“别这样叫。”
Xi Mo said with a sullen face, “Don’t yelp like that.”
阮夜笙本来是没忍住才这样出声的，开始还觉得挺羞耻的，现在看奚墨这绷紧了弦似的表情，突然又有点想笑，轻轻说：“我哪样叫了？”
Ruan Yesheng yelped like that only because she didn’t manage to bear the pain. She had felt quite ashamed initially, but now that she saw Xi Mo’s sullen expression, she suddenly felt like laughing. She spoke softly, “In what way am I yelping?”
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
“我就是疼。”阮夜笙实话实说。
“It just hurts.” Ruan Yesheng said honestly.
奚墨没再接她的话，手下的力道又变得轻了些。
Xi Mo didn’t reply to her, but the strength applied by her hand lightened.
阮夜笙道：“这样轻轻揉会不会没效果，我看说明书上说还是要揉得有点力度的。”
Ruan Yesheng said, “Will it be effective if you rub so lightly? I saw the instructions saying that you have to apply a bit of strength.”
“你不是说疼。”奚墨瞪了她一眼。
“Didn’t you say that it hurts?” Xi Mo glared at her.
阮夜笙噗嗤一笑：“为了好得快一点，我还是忍吧。”
Ruan Yesheng laughed out loud, “For the sake of a quicker recovery, it would be better if I bear with it.”
奚墨拿她没办法，只能恢复了原本正常的力道，继续揉药油，手指在阮夜笙膝盖上缓缓打着转。
Xi Mo had no choice but to revert back to her normal strength and continued to rub the medicinal oil. Her fingers rubbed Ruan Yesheng’s knee in slow circles.
之后有几下实在太疼了，阮夜笙真的有点扛不住。
Afterwards, there were a few times when it was really too painful that Ruan Yesheng couldn’t bear it.
眼看着又要叫出声，阮夜笙只好一手压着腿上堆叠的裙子，一手捂住了嘴。奚墨这时抬起头来，阮夜笙的眼睛在奚墨脸上滴溜溜打量，好像是在观察她的脸色。
Seeing that she was about to yelp again, Ruan Yesheng could only press the stacked skirt on her legs with one hand and cover her mouth with the other. Xi Mo raised her head at this moment. Ruan Yesheng’s eyes were studying Xi Mo’s face, as if observing her mood.
“想叫就叫吧。”奚墨拿她没辙，无可奈何道。
“Yelp if you want to.” Xi Mo said helplessly as she didn’t know what to do with her.
阮夜笙的眼睛弯成道月牙，将捂嘴的手放了下来。
Ruan Yesheng’s eyes were bent into crescents, and she lowered the hand covering her mouth.
开始一段时间的确很疼，随着药油渐渐地开始发挥作用，加上被奚墨揉来弄去的，变得习惯，膝盖上的痛感也从最初的火辣辣，缓缓变成了暖洋洋，后面阮夜笙甚至有了一种诡异的难以启齿的舒服。
It really did hurt for a while at first. As the medicinal oil gradually began to take effect plus the rubbing by Xi Mo, Ruan Yesheng soon became used to it. The pain in her knee has also changed from the initial burning to warmth. Towards the back, Ruan Yesheng even felt a strange and inexplicable sense of comfort.
阮夜笙低低问道：“你手劲怎么那么好，难道学过按摩？这不可能啊。”
Ruan Yesheng asked in a low voice, “Why do you have such good hand strength? Don’t tell me you’ve learned how to massage? That seems impossible.”
奚墨头抬头看着她，回答：“我从小学习钢琴，每天都要练很久，有时候练完手指酸麻得连弯曲起来都很疼，但是第二天还要继续练，所以我就看了个按摩手指和手腕的方法，练完给自己揉一揉，舒缓疼痛，还可以预防腱鞘炎。”
Xi Mo looked up at her and answered, “I have learned piano since I was a child, and I have to practice for a long time every day. Sometimes, my fingers are so sore that it is painful to even bend them after practice, but I still have to continue practicing the next day, so I found a way to massage my fingers and wrist. I will massage them after practice, which can help relieve the pain and can also help prevent Tenosynovitis.”
阮夜笙抿着唇，继续看着她在自己膝盖上忙活。
Ruan Yesheng pursed her lips and continued to watch Xi Mo being busy with her knees.
明明奚墨现在是用着自己的身体，但是她气质出众，这副身体硬是在她的掌控下流露出一股子别样的风骨，眼中神色乍一看淡淡的，内里却又好像翻涌着波涛。
Xi Mo was obviously using her body now. However, she has an outstanding temperament and this body just shows a different kind of feeling under her control. The look in her eyes was faint at first glance, but it seemed like waves were surging inside.
阮夜笙看着看着，不由得回想起最开始换身体的那时候。
Ruan Yesheng looked at her and couldn’t help but recall the time when they first exchanged their bodies.
当时她万分震惊，感觉整个世界都颠倒错乱了，可是震惊之余却又微妙地欣喜了好几天。
She was extremely shocked at the time. She felt as if the whole world was turned upside down and was confused. But in addition to shock, she was subtly happy for several days.
会产生这种心理并非是她这么容易就接受了这个看似匪夷所思的现实，而是她终于有了和奚墨接触的机会。如果没有这个契机，她这辈子或许都不会和奚墨有任何联系了。
It’s not that she accepted this seemingly incredible reality so easily that she has such a mentality. Instead, it was because she finally had the chance to interact with Xi Mo. Without this opportunity, she might not have any interaction with Xi Mo for the rest of her life.
她们俩就像是两条看上去永远不会相交的平行线，突然有一天被那场酒店大火硬生生改变了方向，扭了个交点出来。
The two of them are like two parallel lines that never seem to intersect, but an intersection was created suddenly one day when the fire in the hotel forcefully changed the lines’ direction.
当初她的确是开心的。
She was really happy at the beginning.
现在却是那么强烈地希望能和奚墨换回来。她知道奚墨内心也是这么渴望的，毕竟奚墨那么骄傲的一个人，用着别人的身体，努力扮演着别人，甚至失去了属于她的一切，能忍受到现在，真的是很为难。
But now, she strongly wished that she could exchange bodies back with Xi Mo. She knew that Xi Mo longed for this too in her heart. After all, Xi Mo is such a proud person. Using someone else’s body, trying to act as someone else, and even losing everything that belongs to her, it has been really difficult for her to be able to endure until now.
她想念以前的奚墨。
She missed the previous Xi Mo.
现在的奚墨即使可以随时将自己伪装扮演成阮夜笙，却也不是真正的她，奚墨应该回归属于她的身体，回到以前那么骄傲的她。不需要在人前遮掩，辛苦演戏，做回原本的自己。
Even if Xi Mo can disguise herself as Ruan Yesheng at any time, she is not the real Ruan Yesheng. Xi Mo should return to her own body, back to her proud self before. She doesn’t need to hide from others and act tirelessly and should be herself.
那样的奚墨才是耀眼，自由自在的。
That kind of Xi Mo is when she is truly dazzling and free.
“我会努力的。”阮夜笙低声说。
“I will work hard.” Ruan Yesheng whispered.
“努力什么？”奚墨觉得她突然有点奇怪。
“Work hard on what?” Xi Mo felt that she was suddenly a little strange.
“努力实现你的心愿。”阮夜笙笑道。
“Work hard to realize your wish.” Ruan Yesheng smiled.
“你又知道我的心愿了？”
“And you know my wish?”
“你的心愿不就是早点让你换回身体么。”
“Isn’t your wish to get your body back sooner?”
奚墨安静了片刻，这才点点头：“目前算是吧。”
Xi Mo was quiet for a moment before nodding. “I guess it is for now.”
“什么叫做目前算是吧？”
“What do you mean by ‘I guess it is for now’?”
奚墨的眼中似浮起了些许微光，道：“人的心愿，总是会改变的，当然只能说是目前。”
There seemed to be a faint glint in Xi Mo’s eyes. She said, “People’s wishes always change, so of course I can only say that it is for now.”
“你以前有过很多心愿么？”阮夜笙望着她的眼睛。
“Have you had many wishes before?” Ruan Yesheng looked into her eyes.
在阮夜笙看来，奚墨她的家境那么好，本身那么优秀，又是那么努力敬业，一路走来畅通无比，总是能得到自己想要的。
Based on Ruan Yesheng’s perspective, Xi Mo has a very good family background. Xi Mo herself is also very outstanding as she works hard and is very dedicated. Her journey has been very smooth and she can always get what she wants.
而容易得到的，通常也不能称得上真正的心愿。
And what is easy to obtain usually cannot be considered a real wish.
“从小到大，真正算得上我心愿的，只有三个。”奚墨有些若有所思：“一个是目前换回身体这个，能实现与否尚不明确。另外两个都是我小时候的愿望，一个是侥幸实现的，我原本绝望地以为是不可能成功的。而另一个——”
“From childhood to adulthood, there are only three things that really count as my wish.” Xi Mo was a little thoughtful. “One of them is my current wish to exchange our bodies back. It is not clear whether it can be achieved or not. The other two are wishes I had when I was young. One was achieved by luck. I had originally thought in despair that it was impossible to achieve. And the other one—”
她不知道想到了什么，眼中神色黯淡：“……它永远也不会实现了。”
It was unknown what Xi Mo thought of as her eyes dimmed. “… It will never come true.”
阮夜笙感觉奚墨的情绪有点古怪，暗想难道是她想到了什么伤心事，正想说点什么安慰她，奚墨看上去却又好像调整了情绪，重新低下头去，替她搓揉药油，低声问她：“疼么？”
Ruan Yesheng felt that Xi Mo’s mood was a little strange and thought that Xi Mo might have perhaps recalled something sad. Ruan Yesheng was about to say something to comfort her, but Xi Mo looked as if she had readjusted her mood. She lowered her head again and continued helping Ruan Yesheng rub the medicinal oil. She asked softly, “Does it hurt?”
阮夜笙其实是疼的，这时候却说：“……不疼。”
Ruan Yesheng was actually in pain, but she said otherwise this time. “…It doesn’t hurt.”
“疼就叫，别憋着。”
“Just yelp if it hurts, don’t hold it in.”
阮夜笙：“……”
Ruan Yesheng: “…”
就在这个时候，包厢门居然开了，颜听欢这尊佛不知道从哪个旮旯里冒出来，张口就道：“阮阮啊，我听门口那个傻大个保镖说你和奚墨在这吃晚饭，我过来——”
At this moment, the door to their room actually opened. It was unknown where Yan Tinghuan popped up from. The moment she came, she said, “Ruan Ruan, I heard from the big silly bodyguard outside the door that you and Xi Mo are having dinner here. I came over—”
然后颜听欢的声音戛然而止。
Then, Yan Tinghuan’s voice stopped abruptly.
奚墨正在给阮夜笙的膝盖搓药油，阮夜笙的裙子已经被撩上去了，因为角度视线的缘故，看起来就好像奚墨正在脱阮夜笙裙子。
Xi Mo was currently rubbing medicinal oil on Ruan Yesheng’s knee, and Ruan Yesheng’s skirt has already been held up. Because of the viewing angle, it seemed as if Xi Mo was taking off Ruan Yesheng’s skirt.
颜听欢：“……”
Yan Tinghuan: “…”
这场面在颜听欢看来，从上到下从前到后从左到右都流露出让人误解的四个大字——非礼勿视。
In Yan Tinghuan’s eyes, from top to bottom, front to back, and left to right, this scene showed misleading words which made people misunderstand—indecent acts which should not be seen.
于是颜听欢误解了，真的就不视了，学着紫薇的语气暂时选择性失明说：“尔康，天亮了没有，我怎么看不见了！尔康，我看不见！我看不见！”
So Yan Tinghuan misunderstood and really ignored what she saw. She decided to temporarily have selective blindness as she copied Ziwei’s tone and said, “ Erkang, is the sun up yet? Why can’t I see! Erkang, I can’t see! I can’t see!” [1]
边说边一只手捂着眼睛，一只手在面前抓瞎似的乱挥舞，就要往外走。
She used one hand to cover her eyes as she spoke while her other hand waved about blindly in front of her and she was about to walk out of the room just like that.
阮夜笙：“……”
Ruan Yesheng: “…”
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
你还真会演啊！
You sure know how to act!
也别当经纪人了，改行吧！
How about you don’t be a manager anymore and change your job!
Footnotes:
[1] Ziwei and Erkang are both characters from a show named My Fair Princess which was a big hit in East and Southeast Asia during the late 1990s.
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