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Chapter 40: At That Time, He Met Su Jian

In the end, Ji Yan broke up with that man.

When An Yize received her phone call, he immediately rushed over. Her residence was under surveillance by paparazzi so he took her back to his own residence.

He had just brought her into the house when she threw herself into his arms, crying bitterly.

An Yize couldn’t say if he was happy or sad, but in the end, he couldn’t help but hold her tight.

Ji Yan started living in An Yize’s house.

That was the happiest period of time in An Yize’s life.

Every day after work, she who just happened to be on break after finishing filming had finished making dinner and was waiting for him at home. Even though she’d never cooked much before and her cooking couldn’t really be complimented, he still happily ate every bite.

After dinner, they nestled together on the couch to watch movies. When he was alone, An Yize didn’t watch much TV other than dramas and TV shows she appeared in. But with her, he could happily watch even the most boring of shows.

He knew that she still nursed a wounded heart so he put in a lot of overtime to take her abroad and cheer her up. They leaned against each other watching the Northern lights under the night sky of Norway; they strolled through a village in France holding hands, made wishes with their eyes closed in Rome, and watched fireworks in Edinburgh in each other’s arms.

The passed each day like lovers did.

The anxiousness in her face slowly disappeared, and was replaced with smiles. When An Yize saw her smiles, he felt that the entire world was dazzling bright.

He thought that no matter how tough it had been in the past, he finally had her now.


He secretly had a ring custom made.

On the ring, their initials intertwined, as beautiful as a fairy tale.

The day he received the ring, he held it and stood in front of a window for a long time.

From ten to almost thirty years old, almost twenty years of saving himself, coalesced into the ring in his hand. He suddenly felt as if he were in a trance.

Fortunately, it was worth it to save himself.

He thought that his obstinacy could finally lead to a perfect ending.


That night, he specially prepared enough fireworks to fill the sky.

As the fireworks went off, he brought her to the balcony then brought out the ring box and slowly opened it.

He looked her in the eyes as he said, “Ah Yan, marry me!”


The fireworks exploded one after another in the night sky with loud crashes as if disintegrating dream after dream.

Ji Yan stared, motionless, at the ring in front of her.

After a long, silent pause, she paled, then whispered, “Xiao Ze, I’m sorry.”


That night, An Yize drove to the beach by himself.

He couldn’t stay at home because he didn’t know how to face her.

He sat quietly alone in the car for a long time accompanied by the endless night and the cold sounds of the ocean.

At daybreak, An Yize pulled out the ring and threw it far into the ocean.

Then, without looking back, he returned to his car and went home.


When he got home, she had already left.

She left a note on the table. It said: Xiao Ze, I’m sorry.

He looked at that note in his hands for a long time, then finally understood something.

She truly didn’t love him.

In the past, he always thought that even though she didn’t like him as much as he liked her, she at least held some affection for him.

Otherwise, why would she lay on his knees while laughing so happily? When they held hands and passed a village garden, why was she so obedient? And when he kissed her, why did she only lower her eyelashes instead of ever avoiding it?

But now, anxiety started to flood through him.

He thought, most likely, she really didn’t like him.

Otherwise, how was she able to let him be so unhappy?


When he saw her again, a month had passed.

She displayed an apologetic expression as she uneasily said, “I’m sorry, Xiao Ze, for leaving like that on that day. Because I really didn’t know… how to face you.”

His expression stayed normal. “It’s nothing.”


Then, he didn’t see her for a long time.

He got calmer each day. He felt he could finally learn to let it go.

After that, he heard the news of her engagement with the man she’d always liked.


When he heard the news, he drank until he was dead drunk.

Then, it was Ji Mingfei who rushed over and sent him to the hospital.

“To actually get alcohol poisoning!” Ji Mingfei pointed at him resentfully, “Look at what you’ve become! Is it worth it to do this to yourself? What use is it to put yourself in a miserable state? That other person is about to marry another man! Yize, even now, have you not sobered up? Ji Yan simply treats you like a spare tire. No, you can’t even be considered a spare tire.[1] At most, you’re a trash can!”

He laid in the hospital bed, pale and quiet.

He thought he probably wouldn’t do it again.

Once was enough to experience this kind of poisoning.


As his good friend, Ji Mingfei saw the entire course of his feelings for her.

Though he didn’t think highly of it from the very beginning.

He said, “Yize, have you never heard these song lyrics? Those who cannot obtain affections are always in tumult; those who are favored are secure.”

He said, “Yize, Ji Yan doesn’t suit you. She is the ethereal moonlight and doesn’t even match well with a mulish one-track minded person like you!”


After he was discharged, Ji Mingfei uncharacteristically started to actively introduce him to girls.

He asked him, “Yize, what kind do you like? You better not say you like the Ji Yan type! You spent your life stupidly trailing after her and never met other women, right? I feel that you just haven’t met enough girls. You’ll discover after meeting more that there are a lot of good women out there!”

How could he not understand that? Only, sometimes, even being logical didn’t mean one could control one’s own heart.

But as matters stood, he finally realized that he was unable to stay obstinate.


People always said the best way to move on was nothing more than starting another relationship.

He thought that he might not have feelings, but he would always have time.

He searched, hoping to find a girl he was willing to spend a dull, uneventful life with.


When he met Ji Yan again, she personally told him the news of her impending marriage.

She said it nervously and kept peeking at his eyes as if she were afraid that he would suddenly explode.

But from beginning to end he stayed calm.

He even smiled slightly and said, “Congratulations.”

She visibly relaxed and said with eyes full of sincerity, “Xiao Ze, no matter who I marry, you hold a special place in my heart. You’ll always be one of my most important people. I can’t bear losing you.”

He smiled at her, but didn’t say a word.

She asked, “Right! Xiao Ze, I thought I saw you walking with a girl the other day. Is it a girl you like?”

He said, “No.”

She completely relaxed and said, “It’s okay if it is. If it is, remember to bring her to my wedding!”


That night, he went to the bar by himself.

He rarely went to that type of place, but that day he didn’t know where to go.

He didn’t want to get wasted again, but ordered a wine cooler and sipped it slowly.

People checked him out from time to time. Quite a few tried to strike up a conversation, but he was taciturn and didn’t give them any notice.

At that moment, he met Su Jian.


[1]Spare tire is like someone’s fallback guy that they use for running to when they are sad. Almost a friend-zoned guy but the girl will keep the guy hooked with ambiguous actions.

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23 thoughts on “[RAMLRW] Chapter 40: At That Time, He Met Su Jian

  1. chibi1207 says:

    gyahhhh.. this Ji Yan is a typical woman that expects everyone must pampered her and be there for her when something goes bad for her.. but never even once thinks about others feeling.. like she deserved all that attention.. gyaahhhh i hate this type of girl.

    • Murong Qingyu says:

      I think she shouldn’t have led him on…

    • Som says:

      I wouldn’t say she’s typical of women, but she is of a type. I hate that type, too. It’s inconsiderate, and frankly annoying to watch. Plus, you spend the whole time around those people just wanting to strangle both of them.

    • Nickmaster says:

      Say what you will, his friend is right. She was clearly using him as a consolation prize whenever things did not go her way.

  2. darklain0725 says:

    WTH?! There’s a limit to being a stupid and a b!tch but this girl crossed both of them at once.
    Heck I am sure they had trouble finding photos of her for the wedding where she wasn’t with yize. Pretty sure that if this went public then she will lose all trust and her friends.

    • Som says:

      Her friends already know about Yize, and his endless puppy love. That is all anyone else would see it as. She also semi-avoided him sometimes, telling him not to come so far “it will tire you”. That’s a brush-off, though well intended (probably).
      She wanted a little brother, and she adopted one. It’s a shame for both of them that he didn’t want to be the brother. She stubbornly clings to the idea, though, which is why she feels like she can go back – if she sees him as a brother, then nothing else matters.
      The living together isn’t necessarily a problem, but you can’t let the guy kiss you when you know he wants you. Sheesh. Draw a line, lady, and stick to it, or get the heck outta here.

      • darklain0725 says:

        Never heard of puppy love that lasts for 20 years (immortals excluded)

  3. manna says:

    ughhhhh hateful bish!! i want to smack her left right guuuuh

    thank you for double update

  4. Chibi ~Stalking Since 2009 says:

    My reaction to the whole chapter was: 凸 (`0´)凸
    Bit#h! If you want him to remain as your little brother don’t go doing things like a couple would do with him!
    That green tea bit#h!
    And at the end she is even happy that he couldn’t recover and get another woman! 凸 (`0´)凸
    Now I so want her to break her face when she sees our Jian Jian!

    • SnowTime says:

      Lmao, love how people using cn emojis o3o //just noticed comments wasn’t enable for 41. Oops

  5. eunieberry says:

    Bitch. What special person in my heart? We all know you just want a nice backup plan for you tsk.

  6. kirindas says:

    Thanks for the new chapter! Damn Ji Yan is such a bitch. Stringing along An Yize without care for his feelings.

  7. Ivanator the Great says:

    If An Yize is this clueless and innocent, the only one who can soothe his bitter heart is someone equally, heck even more pure than him like Su Jian!

  8. Miss Ruby says:

    She strung him along! That fking bitch!!!!

  9. brococliff says:

    Will we finally get a scene with the mysterious Su Jian: Original!?
    A serious, intelligent women
    Except after getting into an accident she became a cheerful idiot
    Very mysterious

  10. Oviie Mbem says:

    Sometime being mad in love and being fool have no different, Yize Yize you are a man yet you got affected by your heart too much like a women do, I don’t know to either scold you for your foolish action or pity your love affair.

  11. Duelo Literário G.N. says:

    Ok, ML was an idiot but I changed my mind about a little something…, this woman is evil indeed!!! How dare she destroy our ML’s heart like this! How hateful!
    I need fluffy moments between MC and ML to calm down!
    Thank you for the update!

  12. Levaentin says:

    thnx for the chapter

    and i think he was just being true to his heart, his heart was a naive idiot that had to learn the hard truths of life.

  13. 1_chan says:

    Wtf?? Yize you poor boy ;;; m ;; ;))!!! Thanks for the chapter!

  14. Syifa Hayati says:

    I think it was not fair for jianjian, an yize didnt bring jianjian go out country, didnt bought ring, oh…poor you jianjian. Jian jian you have to reject an yize first…make him do what have he done to that green tea bitch.

  15. Hazel Grace says:

    An yize is really similar to Lan wangji. Both seem like cold people on the outside but are really roanntic people who spend years waiting for their love. And both their lovers are the dense , happy go lucky type lol

  16. kazuhathepoet says:

    And that is why you don’t propose before consulting the other person first.

    Some people sleep around without getting a relationship being their end goal. Some people date without marriage as their end goal. If there are people who are in a relationship who thinks like that obviously there are casuals who think like that too.

    Yize and Jiyan were never officially together. At most they were just fooling around casually. This is supported by the fact that Yize never mentioned a time where the two confirmed the true status of their relationship. He only talked about the time where Jiyan said he only sees him as a brother. Yize was too hopeful and saw something in nothing.

  17. Diair Airship says:

    You know, I really like this kind of ML. So many stone faced cold ML’s made it to their 30’s without ever liking anyone, until the FL suddenly showed up and healed his frosty ass, turning him into the perfect man. It’s undoubtedly romantic, but it’s also decidedly unrealistic; a person like that is barely even human. To have a ML that yearned for someone else prior to meeting the FL is refreshing, and him being so hurt by the girl is a really good reason why he stayed a bachelor for so long. It makes sure that ML remains human instead of some kind of flanderized ideal, and gives the character flaws without having to saddle him with incurable diseases or mental problems.

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