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Chapter 39: An Yize Used To Like Someone

An Yize used to like someone.

A lot.

Ji Mingfei once told him, “Yize, Ji Yan is your predestined calamity.”

An Yize knew this, but everybody had at least one point in their lives where they were obstinate in the face of reality.

The one time in An Yize’s life where he was obstinate in the face of reality was Ji Yan.


An Yize still remembered his first meeting with Ji Yan.

It was at his oldest brother’s birthday banquet. Many guests, including adult and children, attended the banquet. It was very lively.

But that day, he wasn’t happy at all.

That was because he had just fought with his second older brother. He, who wasn’t very good with words, was utterly and completely defeated by his second brother.

The ten-year-old third master An didn’t have his current, strong disposition so he sorrowfully ran into the corner of the garden, hiding his red eyes.

Right at his lowest point, a warm voice rang out: “What’s wrong?”


When An Yize looked up in surprise, a face as beautiful as the voice appeared in his sight.

The thirteen-year-old Ji Yan who had already blossomed into a young lady looked at him with a face full of concern.

An Yize looked at her guardedly. “Who are you?”

Ji Yan crouched lower with a smile and glitters like stars in her eyes.

“My name is Ji Yan.”


Afterwards, An Yize learned from his well-informed second brother of the gentle, older sister’s identity.

Ji Yan was the second miss of the Ji family, but Ji Yan was not related to the Ji family as she came with her mother who had remarried into the Ji family. Then, her last name was changed to Ji.

The Ji family and the An family got along well. So later on, An Yize had many chances to see Ji Yan.

Ji Yan was beautiful and kind-natured. After their first meeting, she looked after An Yize a lot.  An Yize, who had two elder brothers that weren’t that great at looking after people, he naturally fell for this gentler older sister.

Furthermore, the two of them went to the same school.

His elementary school was near her middle school so he frequently went to see her. Sometimes she knew. Sometimes she didn’t.

Later on, he was in middle school as she entered high school. The high school was a bit far from the middle school so he specially bought a bicycle and would go over to see her whenever he had time.

Even her good friends started recognizing him. Whenever they saw him they would smile. “Ji Yan, that younger brother of yours is here again!”

Ji Yan just smiled helplessly as she softly reproached, “Xiao Ze, you’ll tire yourself out running here all the time. In the future, don’t do it anymore.”

An Yize was happy in his heart, but he displayed a false cool expression that was exclusive to teenagers: “I like running!”


Later on, she went to college in another city.

High schooler An Yize started to secretly plan to test into that city’s college.

During break, An Yize went out of his way to go to that city to see her. He would never have imagined that he would see her thin and pallid face filled with grief.

Under An Yize’s interrogation, she admitted that her boyfriend had cheated on her.

An Yize was silent for a long while, then asked, “Who is he?”

An Yize beat up the man who had made her cry, but he couldn’t have imagined that Ji Yan would rush over suddenly then cry while holding and being held by that man.

That day, it rained a lot.

An Yize stood in the rain with an unreadable expression on his face.


Afterwards, An Yize never did something so rash again.

A once rash youth grew more steady, composed, and more taciturn.

It was only when he faced Ji Yan that there would be a particular gentleness under his taciturn expression.

As usual, Ji Yan treated him well. So well that he couldn’t let go of the yearning in his heart.

He once mustered the courage to ask her, “Why do you treat me so well?”

She said, “Xiao Ze, don’t you know that you are irreplaceable in my heart?”


Because of her words, all the concealed hurt in his heart seemed to fade.

And the deeply hidden affection in his heart began to flourish again.

Then, Ji Yan decided to enter the entertainment circle.

The Ji family did not agree, but Ji Yan stubbornly continued ahead. She said that playing different roles and experiencing different lives was her dream.

When most other wealthy family’s misses were enjoying their lives and getting married, her persistence in pursuing the life she wanted made her particularly dazzling.

An Yize thought that, as expected, his ‘her’ was different.

Thus, An Yize secretly begged his oldest brother and second brother.

There was an entertainment company in the An family assets. Its resources were naturally plentiful. Also, ever since his second brother An Yiheng entered entertainment circles for fun, he’d had some particular successes.

As expected, under the secret help of the An family, Ji Yan quickly began to shine.

Yet, An Yize didn’t let Ji Yan know all this.


As Ji Yan gradually became more famous, An Yize’s chances to see her gradually decreased.

On-screen, she looked a bit noble, a bit cool and elegant, as she displayed different expressions.

But in An Yize’s heart, she was always the kindest young girl.

But, sometimes kindness was also a weapon.

An Yiz knew Ji Yan was on and off again with her boyfriend from before, but they had never completely broken up.

Every time they fought, Ji Yan, weary and haggard, would come find him.

She’d say, “Xiao Ze, you’re the only one in this world who can set my mind at rest.”


An Yize was possessive. He also wanted the person he liked to only look at him.

Thus, when Ji Yan went to see him again and fell asleep on his couch, An Yize crouched down in front of her, gently wiped the traces of tears from the corners of her eyes, then confessed to her after she woke up.

Ji Yan was silent for a long time, then she displayed her previous kindness, albeit with some regret.

“I’m sorry Xiao Ze. I’ve always treated you like my little brother.”

“But I’ve never treated you like an older sister! Do you really not know that I haven’t treated you like a sister from the very beginning?”

“…I know, but…”

“Forget it.”


But how could it be so easy to forget things?

He still couldn’t let it go.

In business, he was always able to make the most accurate judgments and make the most resolute of choices. But, his temperament persistently included a different kind of obstinacy.

As a child, whenever he did International Math Olympiad problems and got stuck on a problem, he would stubbornly refuse to move on to the next one. He wasn’t willing to change his line of thought by doing the next problem and would not stop until he solved the current problem.

Then, Ji Yan saw him practicing piano once. Ji Yan smiled at him as she said that he looked like a little prince when he was playing the piano. He, who didn’t really like playing the piano, started to practice hard to the point where he even won many awards.

Except, she had never heard him play the piano that he had practiced for her.

In middle school, Ji Yan would frequently feed the feral cats at school.

In the beginning, An Yize stood quietly behind her and watched her feed them. The indifferent-looking young boy’s eyes were filled with tender feelings as he watched the young girl tenderly dote on the small feral cats under the sunlight.

But as time went on, Ji Yan got busier with her studies and forgot. Then, Ji Yan stopped feeding the feral cats so An Yize frequently brought food over by himself, continuing on for her.

Under the camphor tree, a youth wearing a white shirt and school uniform expressionlessly crouched down as he fed a bedraggled cat, his movements gentle.

Ji Mingfei had also once said that he was too obstinate.

However, with some things, how could he not be obstinate?

Thus, because she said she wanted him to play the piano, he could continue practicing.

Thus, when she stopped feeding the feral cats, he could keep feeding them for her.

And also, even if she didn’t like him, he still liked her uncontrollably.

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54 thoughts on “[RAMLRW] Chapter 39: An Yize Used To Like Someone

  1. nekurafujoushi says:


  2. Reader says:


  3. manna says:


    • Dirtycomputer says:

      We can only wish for a man like An Yize

  4. manna says:

    oh, thanks for the update

  5. #._. says:

    Read…kept on reading…can still keep on…
    Last thought: Idiot.

  6. flaviaclearesta says:

    Thanks for the chapter!

    Well he is an idiot, buuttt if its not for his idiocy, he wont met SJ lel

    Its only a child’s obsession though…

    • Chibi ~Stalking Since 2009 says:

      Obsession that went for too long…… good thing that Bakaburagi was cut earlier….

      • Ease says:

        It’s because that Ji Yan never cut Yize off like Bakaburagi’s crush did. She’s leading him on.

        • yui natsume says:

          Yeah..she did lead him to become obsess with her…poor An Yize become an idiot….but thanks to her leading him that he became a talentes and gteat man….

          Hahaiz…An Yiz, why won’t you become mine? Hahah???

  7. joellyanne says:

    Thanks for this update.

  8. Murong Qingyu says:

    It was sweet. Bitter sweet, but I’m also thankful for the bitterness. Without it, Yize would have never found Jian

  9. OHtheNovelty says:

    So he’s a hot headed lover under all that ice hmmmm?

  10. Nea-er says:

    Ahhhh….. The family friend….and eternally friend zoned

  11. moto says:

    I can appreciate reika novel a lot more when the stories male lead is basically an yize and his childhood crush actually attempted to tell him she doesn’t love him that way and didn’t use his feelings as a crutch for her own well being.

    • Duelo Literário G.N. says:

      Yes, it is refreshing how come his first love was not evil. ML was the stupid one that followed her around, and got her to become a famous actress all on his own. (Although the girl obviously knew about his feelings, and someoneeee must have suspected ML’s family was behind her success, and yet she selfishly kept receiving his care for a long time when she didn’t love him.) I’m kinda disappointed in ML. After all, this past love lasted around 17 years! He better make it up to MC, and work hard to try to earn his wife’s forgiveness!

      Thank you for the chapter! And please, pleaseeeeeeeeeee update the next one as soon as possible as a Thanksgiving gift, Christmas gift or anything *cries* I love this novel!

      • Som says:

        He didn’t get her to be a famous actress all on his own; he used family and family resources. His older brothers were involved. She may have been on again off again with the old boyfriend, but she may well have been on again off again with second brother, as well. That’s the sort of guy second brother is, I seem to recall?
        She did always know that he was into her, yet she rather selfishly didn’t say anything to discourage him until he outright confessed – after the umpteenth time she ran to him for comfort when her sometimes boyfriend was not all she wanted him to be.
        They are both idiots. She stayed with a cheater, who won’t stop cheating. He stuck by her, when she wouldn’t love him. It’s ok to be an idiot for love, but not if it affects other people.

  12. Nirleka says:

    Expect annoying famous elder sister that emotionally dependant to her “younger” brother to appear in next chapter. But, I hope I am wrong and the story not become overly dramatic.

    • SnowTime says:

      Nah, not long enough for drama. XD

  13. nicoda75 says:

    I like that this story is more relatable than what a lot of authors would write it to be. I can already imagine it if it were written by some xuanhuan writers. I can already imagine it. It includes many mentions of the terms “fairy”, “pure”, “white”, “lotus”, and etc,… She’d also be unrealisticly puritanical when it comes to sex.
    But thankfully it’s just a story about a guy who didn’t know when to give up and who mistook his affection for some bs sort of love, also he’s really naïve and pure-hearted.

  14. dean says:

    Oh man, this classic plot for rich man protagonis, always have first love Elder sister…
    Where is Su Jian? I like read this because He/her silly action.. ?
    Thanks for the chapter..

  15. Mysti says:

    Isn’t he doing the same thing to ninxue? He said “you’ve always been like a sister to me” or something when she confessed too. Kinda dick move, but I don’t blame him.

    • SnowTime says:

      He didn’t string her along and used her like that girl did though. I see that as a valid way of rejection o3o

  16. Oviie Mbem says:

    I see, so he is being taken advantage of, foolish and naive little Yize. Sometime love are no different than poison, poor Yize.

  17. eunieberry says:

    For Yize a person or more like a “girl” like the sweet tooth Su Ji An, a closet-Fujoshi, acts like a kid—must be a breathe of fresh air for him. Like compared to that Ji Yan ?

    Thank you so much for the update✨✨??‍♀️

  18. Sytry Fallen says:

    Passed>>Next Chapter Please. XD

    • SnowTime says:

      (Wait until the 23rd. Cough cough)

      • Crazed Monkey says:


      • yui natsume says:

        Huhmmnm…waiting…….. …. …. … … ..?????????????

  19. fayefaye says:

    Ahh… She took advantage of his adoration for her, huh. I’m pretty sure it was infatuation that he felt though.

  20. kirindas says:

    Thanks for the new chapter! Damn. Ji Yan really strung Yize along. Poor guy.

  21. Faith says:

    Awwww 🙁

    I think he really was in love. You don’t go that far for mere affection. At least he’s found someone else to dote on haha.

  22. Perverted Immortal Sage says:

    When you’re in high school you should have just confessed not when you’re older, if he confessed earlier on then you should have been with her.

    • Crazed Monkey says:

      But, it will become a plot without Sun Jian

  23. RandomPasserby says:

    I’m sorry Snowy, I want to like this chapter, but I really hate it… Q.Q
    Thank you for the translation \o/

  24. Levaentin says:

    thnx for the chapter

    …. i must say this is somewhat sad but it happens to lots of people, and well you cant control who you like or love.

  25. Crazed Monkey says:

    Su jian! Come on out! Destroy this drama!

  26. Cloverlin says:

    What a user Ji of a Yan. She said, “I only see you as my lil bro”… but deep inside, you’ve seen him as a rebound dude.

    Tsk tsk.. poor Yize. Being used.. he knows it but still wanting to.

    Its feels like, Ji Yan is like a candle that the moth, An Yize, can’t help but to go near even though the candle can hurt him.

    Our Jian jian.. is the warm sunshine that’ll bring light to our semi-ice block of a Yize ?

    Thanks for the chap..

  27. anonreturns says:

    this is why, this kind of girl is annoying. Leading you on when she doesn’t even like you.

  28. brococliff says:

    So An Yize has a thing for cheerful women who don’t love him.

  29. evlain says:

    And here it’s been come with korean drama recipe of beautiful older woman become the ml’s past love.. sigh* i wish yize meet su jian faster so he know his ji yan is a bitch

  30. 1_chan says:

    Ugh..Ji Yan is no good leading him on like that >> ))..

  31. DarthRevan .Gaming says:

    This cut too deep for me I remember doing the same thing fr this girl I knew trying to get her to notice me basically being a gopher like this guy and wow did I get messed up >.> seriously tho I need to read some Su Jian snu snu to ease my pain.

  32. Clover says:

    WTF!! (frip the table) I was waiting what happened after with our Little Su Jian’s fluufy and warm unconscious confession to the Beast of An-guy? how she is going to fix this dilemma but I find Beast An’s sad love story. The dramatic story of a lovelorn with a violin of background. I don’t need to be an expert in reading faces to know that she is bad news. She’s a selfish self-centered and manipulative b**ch!! a little white lotus hmp!. Love makes people idiotic because no matter how many warnings you give a person in love about their object of affection, they will only reflect for a moment after looking for excuses and embellish this person even more.Beast An- guy I just hope you shorten your story of your failed love because I prefer to read Su Jian’s love stories at least they were more entertaining.

  33. Clover says:

    in summary for Ji Yan your first love you were only the second male lead.

  34. Clover says:

    n summary for Ji Yan your first love you were only the second male lead. The loser who never gets the girl but he cares, supports and protects from the shadows. An idiot with an unrequited love without being rewarded.

  35. Pk says:

    Hahah I clicked next chapter and it came ” haunted mansion in the yarn” and I was like wut?! ???

  36. Kailyria says:

    Poor AY, too stubborn for his own good.

  37. PTchan says:

    Hmm.. I must comment *_* but like, the relationship between Ji Yan and Yize reminds me a awful lot of the MLs backstory in Seven Days. Same thing where he falls for his cheater bro’s girlfiriend, girlfriend knows he likes her and takes advantage treating him as a bestie and goes to him whenever she and bro has a fight, and ML then dates MC (who agreed for fun) as an excuse to try and get over her but actually finds himself falling for MC. Who is male. Yep. XDD I knew I liked this novel for more than three reasons XDDD (Which are genderbend, Su Jian’s wonderful mind, and Yize’s silent suffering) XDDD

  38. Alaneo says:

    When it was said that she entered the entertainment world, it reminded me of how Yize said to our MC that she doesn’t fit with that world…

    Maybe because he was afraid things would happen the same way because of one coincidence.

  39. Feng says:

    all i see is her taking advantage of him. the things she says can be easily misconstrued and she did nothing to change that

  40. xr says:

    I really loved this chapter… so sad to hear how strongly he kept her in his heart.

    To all the people bashing her, just because she didn’t cut him off before he confessed doesn’t mean she’s a selfish b* or that she did something wrong. First, nothing is black and white. Second, he persisted in his feelings despite knowing that she had a boyfriend. She only told him how she felt about him AFTER he confessed.

    Now imagine that you have a boyfriend and a guy friend that you grew up with and see as a brother. Would you automatically think that he likes you?? Even if you thought he liked you, would you randomly say to him, “hey so, I suspect that you like me, but I don’t feel the same”? NO because you ALREADY have a boyfriend/girlfriend so it would be OBVIOUS that you didn’t like him or return his feelings.

    Now let’s take a look at the other character in this story; the white lotus childhood friend Bai Xue something. She’s literally the female version of our ML here. She confessed to him for the first time after he got married and he rejected her. I don’t see people commenting that the ML was bad for “leading her on all these years.”


  41. Sentoria says:


  42. s0nablu says:

    People will definitely have mixed feelings but I feel like she’s also at fault for nurturing his obsessiveness. She knew He looked at him as a woman but she kept leading him on, using him as emotional support when her toxic relationship is at its low and didn’t cut him off.

    This I feel like is also the reason ML cuts of the Bai bitch straight off the bat. Although he was definitely trying to get married to forget about her, he didn’t want to use an emotional girl’s feeling for his benefits and instead picked SJ that’s struggling financially and will only care about the material profits instead of an emotional one.

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