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Chapter 36: It’s Never Too Much To Be More Gentle To Someone I Like.
TL: Resonance
第三十六章 喜欢的人，再多温柔也不为过。
Chapter 36: It’s Never Too Much To Be More Gentle To Someone I Like.
片刻之后, 冯唐唐领着一群人出现在门口，大约六十来个，都是年轻女孩，怀里抱着鲜花或者礼物, 还有那种抱都抱不住的大玩偶，有几个年纪看起来好像还是高中生。
After a while, Feng Tangtang led a group of people and appeared at the door. There are about 60 people and they are all young girls. They were hugging onto fresh flowers or gifts, and there were even large plush toys that were too large to be completely hugged. A few of them also looked like highschool students.
阮夜笙站了起来。
Ruan Yesheng stood up.
那些粉丝甫一看见阮夜笙，眼睛都骤然放光了似的，似乎想要尖叫, 又怕叫太大声了影响不好，于是互相看着低低叫出了声，好几个脸颊通红，只顾着盯着阮夜笙看, 悄声低语, 一时半会都没敢过去。抱玩偶的那几个脸被玩偶挡着了, 急得将玩偶拨到一旁，露出底下一双殷切的眼睛。
When the fans saw Ruan Yesheng, their eyes seemed to have lighted up. They almost wanted to scream, but were afraid that it would be bad making too much noise, so they all looked at each other and screamed silently. Some of them were blushing and they only watched Ruan Yesheng while whispering. For a while, no one dared to step forward. The faces of those holding the plush toy were blocked by it, so they anxiously turned the plush toy aside, revealing a pair of earnest eyes behind.
“是奚墨啊！”
“It’s Xi Mo!”
“真的……奚墨真的在等我们！”
“Really… Xi Mo is really waiting for us!”
“活的女神, 我是不是在做梦！”
“It’s the living goddess, am I dreaming!”
这是提前知会的粉丝探班, 大家也都做好了心理准备, 但是再多的心理准备，在忐忑和心心念念之下持续发酵, 并在这个瞬间由期待转变成了现实，便仍然有些控制不住的梦幻感。
This was the fan visit which had been notified in advance. Everyone has been mentally prepared. But no matter how much they prepared themselves mentally, they couldn’t help feeling that everything is unreal when their expectations turn into reality at this moment after their anxiety and thoughts have been growing for this moment.
这时候奚墨从人群后钻了出来, 越过这群粉丝, 径直往休息室里头走。
At this time, Xi Mo got out from behind the crowd, passed the group of fans, and walked straight into the lounge.
走到半路上, 她斜斜瞥了一眼阮夜笙，脸上倒是和颜悦色的：“奚墨你这粉丝探班呢？我是不是来得不是时候。我就来拿点东西，一会就走的。”
Halfway through, she glanced sideways at Ruan Yesheng and said with a pleasant expression, “Xi Mo, you’re having a fan visit? Did I perhaps come at the wrong time? I’m only here to take something, I will leave soon.”
阮夜笙心里被她那眼神看得想笑，之前不是斩钉截铁地说不来看吗，嘴上配合说：“没事，你随意就好。”
Ruan Yesheng felt like laughing when she saw Xi Mo. Didn’t you decisively say that you wouldn’t come earlier? However, she cooperated on the surface and said, “It’s okay, you can do whatever you want.”
转头又向那群粉丝温柔道：“谢谢大家特地来看我，都过来吧。”
She turned her head back to face the fans and said gently, “Thank you all for specially coming over to see me. Come here.”
那些粉丝这才如梦初醒似地惊呼起来，一边激动着女神和她们说话了，一边往阮夜笙这边围拢了来。冯唐唐和顾栖松等工作人员寸步不离地跟随着，让那些粉丝和阮夜笙之间尽量保持一个有一定距离的缝隙。
Those fans finally exclaimed as if they just woke up from a dream. They surrounded Ruan Yesheng’s side while being excited that their goddess was talking to them. Feng Tangtang, Gu Qisong and other staff followed every step of the way, trying to keep a certain between the fans and Ruan Yesheng as much as possible.
粉丝们只顾着看阮夜笙，却不知道她们的正牌女神奚墨其实早已经擦身而过，去到休息室另外一边的沙发处。她们并不认识阮夜笙其人，眼见奚墨过去，以为是剧组的其他演员，也没好意思去打招呼。
The fans only watched Ruan Yesheng, but didn’t know that their true goddess Xi Mo had already passed by and went to the sofa on the other side of the lounge. They don’t know Ruan Yesheng. Seeing Xi Mo pass by, they thought that it was other actors from the crew and it was awkward for them to greet her.
其中唯独有一个女孩转过头，一直看着奚墨过去的背影，目不转睛的。
Amongst the fans, only one girl turned and kept watching Xi Mo’s retreating back intently.
还是同行有个女孩悄悄叫了她一声：“陈璇，快过来，不要乱看了啦。”
A girl who was accompanying her called her quietly, “Chen Xuan, come here, don’t look randomly.
那叫陈璇的女孩这才回过神，抱歉地小声说：“哦哦，来了，不好意思。”
The girl named Chen Xuan finally came back to her senses and whispered apologetically: “Oh, I’m coming. Sorry.”
她走路时脚有些瘸，看样子有腿伤。
She was limping when she walked, seeming like she had a leg injury.
因为奚墨的外形气质，很受女孩子的喜欢，她那庞大的粉丝队伍里女粉的比例要高一些，这次来的这个后援会探班代表也全都是女孩。
Because of Xi Mo’s appearance and temperament, she is very popular with the girls. The proportion of female fans in her huge fan club is higher, and all the representatives of this fan visit are also girls.
这种后援会人数众多，还分职位的，能过来的都是死忠粉，里面有两个是后援会的负责人，看上去比其他人要老练成熟得多，曾和路清明有过沟通，也认识冯唐唐，显然追随着见奚墨多次了，表现得还算稳重，至于剩下的粉丝们，她们那种溢出来的欣喜几乎有些压不住。
This kind of fan club has a large number of people which are divided into positions. Those who can come are diehard fans, two of which are the people in charge of the fan club. They look more experienced and mature than the others. They have communicated with Lu Qingming before and also know Feng Tangtang. It was obvious that they had chased after and seen Xi Mo a number of times as they behaved rather calmly. As for the remaining fans, their overflowing joy can hardly be suppressed.
不过阮夜笙发现她们的确如奚墨所说，比较守规矩，眼里虽然都是激动的光，但还是克制的。她们在那雀跃又忍着，大概是怕吓到她们的女神了。
But Ruan Yesheng found that they were indeed more disciplined just like Xi Mo said. Although their eyes were filled with excitement, they still have self-control. They are leaping with joy yet controlling themselves over there, probably because they were afraid of scaring their goddess.
排队签名的时候，有几个比较腼腆，递过需要签名的物品之后不知道说什么，只知道重复：“奚……奚墨，我喜欢你，我特别喜欢你！”
When queuing to have Xi Mo’s signature, some of them were more shy. When passing over the item they wished to have Xi Mo’s signature on, they didn’t know what to say and only knew how to repeat, “Xi… Xi Mo, I like you, I really like you!”
很多艺人都有昵称，粉丝们也喜欢叫这种昵称，比如沈轻别的粉丝喜欢叫沈轻别“卿卿”，阮夜笙很久以前的粉丝也叫她“阮阮”，不过奚墨倒没有什么特别的昵称，粉丝们有的称呼她的名字或女神，不知道是不是和她本身给人的气质有关，还有的就直接叫她在作品里的角色名字或角色爱称，将她和他们喜欢的角色融合在了一起。
Many artists have nicknames, and fans like to call these kinds of nicknames. For example, Shen Qingbie’s fans like to call her “Qing Qing”, and Ruan Yesheng’s fans a long time ago also called her “Ruan Ruan”. But Xi Mo doesn’t have any special nicknames. Some fans call her by her name or goddess. It was unknown if it is related to her temperament. Others just call her directly by the name of the character in the work or the nickname of the character, merging her with the character they like.
阮夜笙微笑着给她们签名，签名的物品也是各式各样的，签名本，衣服，奚墨的照片集，主演电影蓝光DVD等等都有，还有几个人直接请她签到手机上。
Ruan Yesheng smiled and signed for them. The items for signing also varied. The items include autograph books, clothes, Xi Mo’s photo book, Blu-ray DVD of the movie she starred in etc., and several people directly asked her to sign on their phones.
看着那几个想请她签手机的，阮夜笙有些哭笑不得，那几个人赶紧解释：“手机我们用得频繁，签手机上的话我们可以随时看到你……你的签名。”
Ruan Yesheng didn’t know where to laugh or cry when she saw those who wanted her to sign on their mobile phones. Those few people quickly explained, “We use our phones quite often. If you sign on our phones, we can see your… your signature anytime.”
阮夜笙点点头，依她们的要求用油漆笔签在了手机背面。
Ruan Yesheng nodded and signed on the back of the phone with a paint marker pen according to their request.
那几个人接回手机，欢天喜地又小心翼翼地给手机套手机壳，生怕将那签名刮花了。
The few people took back their phones and happily put the phone cases back on them carefully for fear of ruining the signature.
这时候阮夜笙觉得她们挺可爱的。
Ruan Yesheng thought they were very cute.
当年她也曾被众星捧月，在闪光灯和粉丝的簇拥中顾盼生辉。过气隐退之后，光环渐渐淡去了，直至消失，这么多年里她的心境早已趋近平和，不过此刻看着这些粉丝殷切纯粹的目光，多少还是有些感叹和触动。
Back then, she was also once supported with love and respect and she lived brilliantly amongst the flashing light and her fans. After losing popularity and disappearing from the spotlight, the halo gradually faded until it disappeared. Her mind has long reached its peace after so many years. But at this moment, she still felt regretful and touched as she looked at the pure and earnest look of these fans.
能被这些可爱的人们喜欢着，多么好。
It’s so good to be liked by these lovely people.
而看着她们眼里那种名为幸福的光芒，知道自己正在代替奚墨为她们带去幸福，那也是高兴的。
Seeing the happiness in their eyes, she still felt happy even if she knew that she was replacing Xi Mo to bring them happiness.
盲目疯狂的追星不可取，对粉丝自身起到负面影响不说，也给明星们招致许多麻烦和苦恼。
It’s not advisable to chase after celebrities blindly. Not only does it have a negative impact on the fans themselves, but it also causes a lot of trouble and distress for the celebrities.
但是若是在一个合理且不打扰的范畴内，有的人成为粉丝们心中那抹向往的月光，便会给他们带来开心与幸福，甚至带来往前走下去的的勇气与动力，或许这就是人类向往和追寻美好事物时所蔓延出的某种力量吧。
But if it was done in a reasonable and not bothersome way, some people would become the moonlight in the hearts of the fans and bring them joy and happiness. They may even bring them the courage and motivation to move forward. Maybe this is some kind of power that spreads when humans yearn for and pursue beautiful things.
奚墨坐在沙发上，隔了些距离望向阮夜笙，觉得她此刻并未扮演自己，而就是阮夜笙本人了——她正温柔，笑意由衷。
Xi Mo sat on the sofa and looked at Ruan Yesheng from a distance. She felt that Ruan Yesheng was not acting as her at this moment, but as Ruan Yesheng herself—She is gentle and smiling sincerely.
如果谁是她的粉丝，那应该也很幸福。
Whoever is her fan should be very happy.
傍晚的休息时间并不长，阮夜笙现在还带着妆穿着戏服，她的戏服多是广袖华服，签名的时候有点不方便，长袖擦来蹭去的，围在她身边的女孩忐忑又体贴地帮她捞了起来，托在手中。
Their break time during the evening wasn’t very long and Ruan Yesheng is still wearing her costume and makeup. Her costumes are mostly wide-sleeved costumes which are a bit inconvenient when signing as the long sleeves would move back and forth. The girls surrounding her anxiously yet considerately helped her hold the sleeves up in their hands.
“谢谢。”阮夜笙低头朝她一笑。
“Thank you.” Ruan Yesheng lowered her head and smiled at her.
那个女孩感觉这一刻心脏都要爆炸了，心想怎么会有这么漂亮又脾气这么好的人，脸登时红得不行，旁边的几个人也在羡慕地轻轻推搡这女孩，相互激动不已。
That girl felt that her heart was going to explode at this moment. She thought ‘How could there be such a beautiful and good-tempered person?’ and her face was very red at this moment. The few people around her were also enviously pushing the girl lightly while feeling excited themselves.
奚墨沉着脸全程看着，感觉此刻的阮夜笙简直是眼带桃花，撩人一撩一个准，还是那种根本无心的撩，突然有点想把她这种近乎妖孽的无差别撩拨给挡住，收拢了来。
Xi Mo watched the whole scene with a solemn face. She felt that Ruan Yesheng now was full of charm. She was charming each and everyone of them without fail, and it wasn’t even intentional. She suddenly felt like blocking Ruan Yesheng’s devil-like charm and gathering them.
至于收拢了来做什么，她倒不曾考虑。
As for what she would do when she gathered them, she hadn’t thought about it.
有个人鼓起勇气道：“奚墨，我……我可以抱一下你吗？”
One person gathered her courage and asked, “Xi Mo… May I give you a hug?”
阮夜笙道：“可以。”
Ruan Yesheng said, “Yes.”
那个人眼睛顿时擦亮了，搓了好一会手，似乎是觉得搓干净了，这才过来抱阮夜笙。阮夜笙感觉她也不知道是太过高兴，还是紧张，甚至都有点发抖。
That person’s eyes instantly light up. After rubbing her hands for a while, she finally went over to give Ruan Yesheng a hug seemingly after she felt that she had rubbed her hands clean. Ruan Yesheng didn’t know if she was too excited or too nervous, and she was also trembling slightly.
那个人大约也是来之前被负责人和冯唐唐她们嘱咐过要注意分寸，担心她女神会不自在，所以只抱了一下就分开了，纯礼节性的拥抱，抱完之后一脸“我是不是在做梦”的神游神色，幸福得要冒泡。
That person was probably told by the person-in-charge and Feng Tangtang to know the limits before coming. Worried that her goddess would be uncomfortable, she only gave a short hug before separating. It was a purely courteous hug. After the hug, she had a dazed “am I dreaming” look and her happiness was overflowing.
后面的粉丝们见竟然可以和女神拥抱，哇的一声，也都说要抱抱。
The fans in the back saw that they could actually hug the goddess. With a wow, they all said they wanted to hug[1].
以前奚墨在粉丝面前一直都很和气，对粉丝好也是出了名的，所以阮夜笙这时也不需要装什么高贵冷艳，完全可以本色演出，好脾气地顺着粉丝们的话笑道：“可以，你们排队来，都可以抱抱。”
In the past, Xi Mo has always been polite to her fans and she was famous for being nice to fans. Hence, Ruan Yesheng doesn’t need to pretend to be noble and cold at this time and could act as herself. With a good temper, she went along with her fans and said with a smile, “ Sure. You all line up, all of you can get a hug.”
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
抱抱？！
Hug?!
……多大年纪了，也好意思跟着她们这些小女孩说抱抱。丢我的脸。
… How old are you already? To think you’re not ashamed to say ‘hug’ like these young girls. You’re embarrassing me.
她突然又有点心神不定的不悦。
She suddenly felt displeased.
只是她也不知道自己在不高兴什么，窝在沙发上看着阮夜笙和自己的粉丝们一一友好地拥抱。她自己反正没得抱，先是抱着双臂，大约觉得这样索然无味，然后又只好抱着沙发上的抱枕，下巴磕在抱枕上，双手将那可怜的抱枕攥得紧紧的，修长手指还下意识揉了揉。
However, she didn’t know why she felt displeased. She sat on the sofa and watched Ruan Yesheng giving each of her fans a friendly hug. She herself doesn’t get to hug anyway. First, she hugged her own arms. Perhaps finding it too dull, she ended up hugging the pillow on the sofa. She tucked her chin on the pillow and clenched the poor pillow tightly with her hands, her slender fingers rubbing them unconsciously.
看着脸色沉沉的，揉的劲道倒是不大，挺温柔。
Despite her solemn expression, she was gentle and didn’t use too much strength.
最近每天的拍摄任务都非常重，加上路清明交待过探班时间不能太长，冯唐唐怕影响她奚姐这宝贵的休息时间，眼见基本告一段落了，赶紧说：“我们先合影吧，拍完了照我送你们搭车回去，谢谢大家。”
Recently, the filming for each day has been very demanding. To add on, Lu Qingming had mentioned that the visiting duration mustn’t be too long. Feng Tangtang is afraid of affecting her sister Xi’s precious rest time. Seeing that most of the things are already done, she quickly said, “Let’s take a group photo. After the photo is taken, I will send you all off. Thank you everyone.”
有人小声说：“糖糖姐，我们……可不可以每个人都和奚墨拍一张？”
Someone whispered, “Sister Tangtang, can we…can each of us take a picture with Xi Mo?”
旁边几个人大约是觉得这个提议不是很妥当，朝她嘘了一声，那个人很不好意思地说：“……对不起。”
Some people next to her probably felt that this proposal was not very appropriate, so they shushed her and the person said embarrassedly, “…I’m sorry.”
冯唐唐也有点犹豫，这么多人，之前一个个签名，一个个拥抱，现在再一个个合影下来，得把她奚姐累死吧？
Feng Tangtang was also hesitant. There are so many people. Previously, they each got a signature and a hug. If they also each have a picture taken with sister Xi, wouldn’t sister Xi be too tired?
冯唐唐正想婉拒，阮夜笙温和道：“没关系，可以的，就是速度需要加快点。”
Feng Tangtang was about to decline when Ruan Yesheng said gently, “It’s okay. We can do it, but we need to be fast.”
粉丝们心里狂喜，赶紧过来轮流和阮夜笙合影。她们其实也肩负重任，这次探班回去，还要把照片发布出去给其他来不了的粉丝看，合影时认真又激动。
The fans were overjoyed and hurriedly came over to take pictures with Ruan Yesheng. They were actually shouldering heavy responsibility. After this fan visit, they have to distribute the photos taken to the other fans who couldn’t make it. When they were taking the pictures, they were serious yet excited.
六十多个人排着队，每个人都拿手机和阮夜笙拍了一张自拍做纪念，最后冯唐唐给她们拍了几张大合照，这才算结束。
More than sixty people lined up. Everyone took a selfie with Ruan Yesheng with their mobile phones as a memento. In the end, Feng Tangtang took a few group photos of them, and it was finally over.
探班到此为止，粉丝们恋恋不舍地离开，冯唐唐和顾栖松将她们这一大群人送了出去。
The fan visit ended here and the fans left reluctantly. Feng Tangtang and Gu Qisong sent the big group out.
休息室里只剩下鲜花和一堆礼物，还有阮夜笙，奚墨两人。
Only flowers and a bunch of gifts remained in the lounge, as well as Ruan Yesheng and Xi Mo.
奚墨也没想到阮夜笙这么好说话，粉丝的要求这次真的能配合的就尽量配合了，她瞥见阮夜笙眼中似有疲态，也没说什么，倒了杯水递给她。
Xi Mo didn’t expect that Ruan Yesheng would be so agreeable. She really tried her best to cooperate with the fans’ requests if possible. She saw the tiredness in Ruan Yesheng but didn’t say anything and poured a glass of water for her.
“谢谢。”阮夜笙的确很渴，将杯中的水都喝完了，发现奚墨仍旧静静盯着她。
“Thank you.” Ruan Yesheng was indeed very thirsty. She drank all the water in his glass and found that Xi Mo was still staring at her quietly.
“你有话对我说，是么？”阮夜笙眼睛弯了弯。
“Do you have something to tell me?” Ruan Yesheng’s eyes curled.
静默片刻，奚墨道：“你太温柔了。”
After a moment of silence, Xi Mo said, “You are too gentle.”
阮夜笙眼里浮起讶色，一面琢磨着这种话奚墨应该不会当面对自己说吧，一面觉得自己好像在做梦，眼眸抬起，且媚且娇地看向奚墨。
Ruan Yesheng’s eyes were filled with surprise. On one hand, she thought that Xi Mo probably wouldn’t say this kind of words to her directly. On the other hand, she felt that she was dreaming. She looked up at Xi Mo with charming and delicate eyes.
奚墨见她这神色好像是误会了什么，赶紧严肃地补充道：“我是说你对粉丝。”
Xi Mo felt that Ruan Yesheng was probably misunderstanding when she looked at her eyes, so she hurriedly added seriously, “I meant you are gentle towards you fans.”
阮夜笙：“……”
Ruan Yesheng: “…”
她立刻又掩饰般娇羞道：“原来是这个意思，我以为你说别的呢。”
As if covering up, she said shyly, “So that’s what you meant. I thought you meant something else.”
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
“温柔很好。只是温柔太多，负担也是成倍的。诚然大家都喜欢温柔好说话的人，当你温柔地尽量照顾到每一个人的每一个要求时，别人都会开心，而只有你会很累。”奚墨道：“今天只来了六十几个人，那还可以，如果来更多呢，你也要像刚才一样签名，拥抱，合照，每一个都顾全到么。”
“Being gentle is great. But if you’re too gentle, your burden would also increase. It is true that everyone likes people who are gentle and agreeable. When you try to take care of everyone’s every request gently, others will be happy, but only you will be very tired.” Xi Mo continued, “Only around 60 people came today, so that was still manageable. But what if more came? Are you going to sign, hug and take pictures with every single one of them just like earlier?”
“我明白你的意思。”阮夜笙笑道：“你说这么多，是不是不希望我累？我很高兴。”
“I understand what you mean.” Ruan Yesheng smiled and said, “You said so much. Is it because you don’t wish for me to be tired? I’m very happy.”
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
“你想多了。”奚墨冷道。
“You think too much.” Xi Mo said coldly.
阮夜笙早就习惯了奚墨对她的那种表面的冷冰冰硬邦邦，毫不在意地说：“我看过很多你和粉丝见面的视频，只要不是过分的要求你也都是尽量满足的，有时候来的粉丝太多了，你都为了她们待到很晚，那你也不是很累么。而正因为你以前是这样，我觉得自己也应该这样，总要做到设定符合对吧，不然就让人怀疑了。”
Ruan Yesheng has long been accustomed to the kind of coldness Xi Mo displays on the surface when interacting with her. Without minding it, she said, “I have watched a lot of videos of your fan meeting. If the request wasn’t too unreasonable, you would try to satisfy it as much as possible. Sometimes, there are too many fans that come and you would still stay on for them. Weren’t you tired too? Because you used to be like this, I think that I should be like this too. I should act according to your character right? Or else, others will become suspicious.”
“……没有那回事。”奚墨嘴硬否认的同时，也觉出了什么不对劲来。
“… There’s no such thing.” While Xi Mo was stubbornly denying her claim, she also felt that something was strange.
那次酒店大火后，阮夜笙代替她参加记者招待会时，她就发现阮夜笙学她的一切学得太像了，甚至连举手投足的小动作都有顾虑到。那时候她还猜测过阮夜笙可能反复看过自己的很多视频资料，以至于如此熟悉自己，并且还被自己的这个猜测吓了一跳。不过鉴于那时候她和阮夜笙水火不相容的样子，很快她就否定这个猜想。
After the hotel fire incident, Ruan Yesheng had attended a press conference in her place. At that time, she already noticed that Ruan Yesheng imitated her too well. Even small movements such as the way she raised her hand was considered. At that time, she even guessed that Ruan Yesheng might have watched many of her own videos repeatedly to be able to be so familiar with herself and was shocked by her own conjecture. However, given the incompatibility between her and Ruan Yesheng at that time, she quickly rejected this conjecture.
现在一回想，加上阮夜笙亲口确认，那竟然是真的。
Thinking about it now plus Ruan Yesheng’s personal confirmation, it turned out to be true.
奚墨有点不自在：“你没事看我那么多视频做什么？”
Xi Mo felt a little uneasy. “What are you doing watching so many videos of me?”
阮夜笙还是笑意盈盈：“透彻地研究你，挖你黑料，到时候好黑你啊。”
Ruan Yesheng was still full of smiles as she replied, “To study you thoroughly and dig up your dirt so that I can defame you.”
奚墨：“……”
Xi Mo: “…”
“好了，好了，我乱说的。”阮夜笙道：“我是你粉丝，喜欢看你视频不是很正常么？”
“Fine, fine. I’m just kidding.” Ruan Yesheng continued, “I’m your fan. Isn’t it normal that I like watching your videos?”
“黑粉么？”
“You mean hater[2]?”
阮夜笙无辜地摊了下手。
Ruan Yesheng shrugged innocently.
奚墨拿着见底的杯子示意她：“还要不要喝水？”
Xi Mo gestured to her with the empty glass, “Do you still want water?”
阮夜笙摇摇头，顺势在沙发上坐下了，奚墨放回杯子走回来，阮夜笙抱着她刚才抱过的抱枕，道：“你的粉丝，她们很有礼貌，排队来的话其实很快就好了，而且我也有分寸，不会耽误工作的。什么时候该答应，什么时候要拒绝，我心里都有数。”
Ruan Yesheng shook her head and sat down on the sofa. Xi Mo put back the glass and returned. Ruan Yesheng was hugging the pillow she had hugged earlier and said, “Your fans are all very polite. If they line up, the process can be completed pretty quickly. Plus, I know the limits and won’t delay our work. I know when to agree and when to refuse.”
阮夜笙说有分寸，这点奚墨还是绝对相信的。她没吭声，也在旁边坐下来。
Ruan Yesheng said that she knows the limit, and Xi Mo absolutely believed in this. She didn’t say a word and also sat down at the side.
“我离开了太久，有些事已经不熟悉了。”阮夜笙的目光有些放空，唇角的笑浅浅的：“当我看到你的粉丝们的时候，虽然她们将我当成了你，但是她们看过来的眼神，让我想起从前。”
“I have left for too long and I’m not familiar with some things anymore.” Ruan Yesheng’s eyes were a little distant and she smiled lightly. “Although they think of me as you, when I see your fans, the way they look at me reminds me of the past.”
奚墨沉默。
Xi Mo was silent.
她想起阮夜笙从前也是有很多粉丝的。从众人瞩目到归于沉寂，究竟会经历些什么。
She remembered that Ruan Yesheng also had many fans in the past. From being the centre of attention to the current silence, just what did she experience?
“我觉得她们很可爱。”阮夜笙说：“她们也很守秩序，其实并不是很累，都是按顺序来的，我很喜欢她们。”
“I think they are very cute.” Ruan Yesheng continued, “They are also very orderly. It wasn’t very tiring as they came in order. I like them very much.”
“喜欢的人，再多温柔也不为过。我也愿意负担。”她目不转睛地看着奚墨：“因为值得。”
“It’s never too much to be more gentle to someone I like. I’m willing to bear the burden.” She stared at Xi Mo intently and said, “Because it’s worth it.”
她的眼里有潋滟的水光，仿佛可以困住人似的，不让人上岸般的沉溺。
There was a watery gleam in her eyes which seemed like it could trap people and prevent them from going ashore.
奚墨迎向她的目光，过了会才转移视线，说：“给我你怀里的抱枕。”
Xi Mo met her gaze and turned away after a while. She said, “Give me the pillow you’re hugging.”
“沙发那边不是还有一个么？”阮夜笙说着，将另外一个拿起来：“给。”
“Isn’t there another one on the sofa?” Ruan Yesheng said and picked up the other pillow. “Here.”
“我要刚才我抱过的。”
“I want the one I hugged just now.”
阮夜笙：“……”
Ruan Yesheng: “…”
阮夜笙只好把那只抱枕递给了奚墨，自己抱了另外一个。
Ruan Yesheng could only give Xi Mo the pillow she was hugging and hug the other one.
两人一人抱了个抱枕，并排坐在沙发上。
The two each hugged a pillow and sat side by side on the sofa.
谁也没说话，阮夜笙觉得两人这样抱着枕头坐着，有点傻。
No one said anything. Ruan Yesheng felt that the two of them were a little silly sitting there while hugging the pillow.
却傻得让她有点高兴。
But this silliness made her a little happy.
“你待会要做什么，就在这坐着？”阮夜笙低声问道。
“What are you going to do later, just sit here?” Ruan Yesheng asked softly.
“坐着。”奚墨闭目养神：“等夜戏。”
“Yes.” Xi Mo closed her eyes to rest, “Wait for the night filming.”
见奚墨安静坐着，阮夜笙感觉到一种深入心底的宁静，仿佛周围一切都抛开了似的，此刻她也没什么要紧事，就陪着一起等。
Seeing Xi Mo sitting quietly, Ruan Yesheng felt a sense of peace permeating her heart as if everything around her had been put aside. She didn’t have anything urgent to do at the moment, so she waited with her.
这种宁静很快被敲门声打破。
This tranquility was soon broken by the knock on the door.
两人同时转过了脸，门开着，顾栖松还是在门上很规矩地敲了几下，他旁边站着一个女孩。
The two of them turned over to look at the same time. The door was open, but Gu Qisong still stood politely outside the door and knocked a few times. Beside him stood a girl.
是刚才探班粉丝里那个叫陈璇的女孩。
It’s the girl named Chen Xuan who was among the group of visiting fans just now.
顾栖松道：“阮小姐，打扰一下，这位陈小姐她找你。”
Gu Qisong said: “Excuse me Ms Ruan. Ms Chen here is looking for you.”
Footnotes:
[1] The ‘hug’ in italics is to represent a more childish way of saying hug as written in the raws. Usually hug is said using the word 抱. In here, they used the term 抱抱. The words also means hug, just that it sounds more childish and is usually said by/to children/younger people.
[2] Ruan Yesheng said that she is a fan(粉丝) of Xi Mo, to which Xi Mo replied 黑粉, which was shortened from 黑粉丝(hater). It’s basically adding just one word ‘黑’ to the word fan(粉丝) which completely changes to meaning, but it doesn’t really translate well in English. Xi Mo was implying that Ruan Yesheng was a ‘hater’ kind of fan.
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