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Chapter 14: My Heart Beats For You (V)


尚可没想到自己玩了那么多次极限运动都没出事,结果被江东霖随手一推,就把脑袋给撞坏了。他并没有晕太久,至少足够让他第一时间知道检查结果,原本2年的稳定期出现了变故,如果不做手术的话,情况会快速恶化。

Shang Ke didn’t expect that even after playing so many extreme sports he wouldn’t have a problem, but a simple push from Jiang Donglin caused his head to hit the wall. He did not remain unconscious for too long, as least he knew in the first few moments his situation. The original two years of steadiness for his condition changed, if he doesn’t undergo surgery, his condition will quickly worsen.

尚可被转移到单人病房,因为江东霖、简沉锋和徐擎都在,所以他决定继续睡他的美人觉。

Shang Ke was sent to a single person sickroom. Because Jiang Donglin, Jian Chenfeng and Xu Qing were all around, he decided to continue his beauty sleep.

江东霖握着手机坐在床边发呆,一时不知道该说什么。

Jiang Donglin held his phone sitting at his bedside in a daze, he didn’t know what to say.

简沉锋望着床上的江余墨,此刻的他,少了平日的活力,却多了几分恬静,半颗脑袋陷在柔软的枕头里,几缕头发耷拉在眉眼处,似乎睡得正香。

Jian Chenfeng looked at Jiang Yumo on the bed, the current him lost a bit of his usual energy but he was a bit more quiet. Half of his head sank into the soft pillow and a few strands of hair dropped over his eyes, he looked like he was sleeping very peacefully.

“徐医生,你是说江余墨几个月前就知道自己的病情了?”简沉锋突然出声问。

“Doctor Xu, you said Jiang Yumo knew of his condition a couple months ago?” Jian Chenfeng suddenly asked.”

“是的。”徐擎点头。

“Yes.” Xu Qing nodded.

简沉锋眯起眼,神色阴郁。

Jian Chenfeng narrowed his eyes, his expression gloomy.

江东霖猛地抬起头:“既然如此,你为什么没有通知我们?”若是通知了,他又怎么会伤到余墨?

Jiang Donglin suddenly raised his head, “Since so, why didn’t you inform us?” If they knew, how could he had hurt Yumo?

徐擎朝病床的位置努了努嘴:“是你弟弟让我帮忙隐瞒的。”

Xu Qing moved his mouth at the hospital bed, “Because your younger brother had me help him keep it a secret.”

“什么?”江东霖转头看向尚可,眼中闪过一丝困惑,喃喃道,“这么大的事情,他为什么要隐瞒?”

“What?” Jiang Donglin turned his head to look at Shang Ke, perplexion going through his eyes as he muttered, “Such a bit thing, why did he hide it?”

“这个我就不清楚了。”徐擎转身,一边往外走,一边说道,“你们尽快给他安排手术吧,拖得越久越危险。”

“That, I don’t know.” Xu Qing turned around and while he walked out, he told him, “You guys better arrange an operation for him as soon as possible. The longer this drags out, the more dangerous it is.”

“等等,我还有一些问题要问你。”江东霖跟着徐擎走出了病房。

“Wait, I still have some other questions to ask.” Jiang Donglin followed Xu Qing out of the room.

房间中就剩下简沉锋和正在努力酝酿睡意的尚可。

Now the only ones that remained in the room were Jian Chenfeng and Shang Ke who was doing his best to sleep.

简沉锋走到床边,伸手拂开尚可额前的发丝,正在这时,尚可的睫毛微微颤动了几下,然后缓缓睁开眼,朝他懒懒一笑。那一瞬间,简沉锋只觉得眼前一亮,胸中的郁气仿佛全都烟消云散。

Jian Chenfeng walked to his side, and reached out to brush aside Shang Ke’s hair. At this moment, Shang Ke’s eyelashes slightly trembled and slowly, his eyes opened. He lazily smiled at him. In that split second, Jian Chenfeng felt like the world before him brighten, all the gloominess he had in him all vanished like smoke.

“简沉锋,简忻还好吗?”尚可开口问道。

“Jian Chenfeng, is Jian Xin alright?” the first thing Shang Ke ask was that.

简沉锋脸色一沉,不悦道:“她没事,你还是先关心一下自己吧。”

Jian Chenfeng’s face dimmed and he said, rather annoyed, “She’s fine, you should worry about yourself first.”

“我怎么了?”尚可坐起身,摸了摸自己的后脑。

“What’s wrong with me?” Shang Ke sat up and rubbed the back of his head.

“江余墨,麻烦你告诉我,为什么你明知自己患了脑瘤,还要参加那些危险的极限运动?”简沉锋紧紧盯着他,声音中带着极力压抑的怒气。

“Jiang Yumo, can you tell me, why even after knowing you have a brain tumor, yet you still continue to participate in those dangerous extreme sports?” Jian Chenfeng stared fixedly at him, his voice carrying greatly repressed anger.

尚可义正言辞地表示:“我不能因为生病就放弃自己的爱好。”

Shang Ke said in a justifying tone, “I cannot give up what I like just because I am ill.”

“那么,你为什么要隐瞒病情?”

“Then, why did you have to hide your condition?”

“因为家人如果知道了,肯定不会再让我参加运动了啊。”尚可给了他一个“这还用问”的眼神。

“Because if my family knew, they will not allow me to continue participating in sports.” Shang Ke gave him a “you still need to ask” expression.

“很好。”简沉锋咬牙切齿,“看来你很有觉悟,从今天开始,你确实不能再参加任何激烈运动了。”

“Very good.” Jian Chenfeng gritted his teeth, “It looks like you understand it quite well, from today on, you indeed, cannot participate in any intense sports.”

“so bad!”尚可露出一个生无可恋的表情。

“So bad (English)!” Shang Ke revealed a reluctant expression.

简沉锋不为所动,沉默地看了他半晌,突然问:“江余墨,你是不是想死?”

Jian Chenfeng remained unmoved as he stayed silent for a long time then suddenly asked, “Jiang Yumo, are you thinking of dying?”

他问得很严肃,没有一丝玩笑的成分。江余墨得知自己的病情后,不告诉家人,也不配合治疗,反而不要命地参加各种危险的极限运动。他这不是明摆着找死吗?

He asked very seriously without any hint of a joke. After Jiang Yumo found out his situation, not only did he not tell his family, he also did not take treatment. Instead, like he didn’t want his life, he started to participate in every kind of dangerous extreme sport. Isn’t he clearly courting death?

简沉锋自诩还有几分眼力,但相处这么长时间,竟然完全没看出他有厌世的迹象。江余墨生活无忧,备受宠爱,如果被欺负了,自有家人维护他。如此顺风顺水,还有什么想不开的?

Jian Chenfeng had confidence in his ability to make judgements, but even after interacting with Jiang Yumo for so long, he completely did not notice any pessimistic sign from him. Jiang Yumo’s life was free of worry and loved. If he was being bullied, he had his family to protect him. Such a good life, what would make him depressed?

“我活得好好的,怎么会想死?”尚可不以为意,“你想多了。”

“I am living so well, why would I think of dying?” Shang Ke unconcernedly answered, “You’re overthinking things.”

“是吗?”简沉锋面无表情道,“那这段时间你就给我老实待着,直到专家研究出一个妥善的手术方案。”

“Is that so?” Jian Chenfeng expressionlessly said, “Then for this period of time, you will obediently stay here until a specialist makes an appropriate operation plan for you.”

“我爸妈都还没说话呢!”尚可瞪着他。

“My parents haven’t even said anything yet!” Shang Ke glared at him.

“沉锋的意思就是我们的意思。”江余墨的父母和江东霖一起走进病房,江父严厉道,“你真是翅膀硬了,连这种事情也敢隐瞒!”

“Chenfeng’s desire is our desire.” Jiang Yumo’s parents and Jiang Donglin walked into the room together. Father Jian strictly said, “You are certainly ready to spread your wings, to even dare to hide this kind of matter!”

江母拉住尚可的手,忧心道:“余墨,你怎么样,有没有哪里不舒服……”

Mother Jiang pulled Shang Ke’s hand and asked in concern, “Yumo, how are you? Is there any place you don’t feel well…”

简沉锋见江余墨的家人都来了,适时告辞,离开前又看了一眼正在温声安慰父母的尚可,眼神微暗。只要想到这个人有一天会消失,他就觉得无法呼吸。这种恐慌,从未有过。他知道自己完了,再也不能欺骗自己,这种强烈的悸动只是一种错觉……

When Jian Chenfeng saw Jiang Yumo’s family was all here, he timely said his goodbye. Before he left, he gave another glance at Shang Ke comforting his parents, his eyes slightly dark. So long as he thought of how this man would one day disappear, he would feel he couldn’t breathe. This kind of fear, he had never felt before. He knew that he was done for, he can’t lie to himself anymore. That this intense throb in his heart was just a misconception…

两天后,尚可被接进了简沉锋的家。

Two days later, Shang Ke was welcomed into Jian Chenfeng’s home.

没错,就是简沉锋的家。也不知道他是怎么说服他父母的,竟然让他们将监管和照顾的责任,全权交给了他。尚可连反对的机会都没有,就被父母打包送给了简沉锋。

That’s right, Jian Chenfeng’s home. He didn’t know just how he had persuade his parents, to overturn all responsibility to take care of him completely to him. Shang Ke had not even been given the chance to oppose before he was packaged and wrapped by his parents and sent over.

“从今天开始,你白天和我一起上班,晚上和我一起睡觉(不同房?),有任何活动,都必须先征得我的允许。”简沉锋和他定下规矩。

“From today on, you will go to work with me in the morning, then in the evening, sleep with me (in different rooms?). If you want to exercise, you have to obtain my permission.” Jian Chenfeng set down all the rules to him.

“简沉锋,你到底和我爸妈说了什么?他们怎么会同意让我住进你家?”尚亦感觉有些不可思议。

“Jian Chenfeng, just what did you say to my parents? How could they agree to let me live in your house?” Shang Ke still felt it was too unimaginable.

简沉锋瞥了他一眼:“我只是告诉他们,我妹妹可以让你改邪归正。”

Jian Chenfeng shot him a glance, “I just told them, my younger sister can turn you over a new leaf.”

居然连妹妹也利用上了?还有,什么叫“改邪归正”?他哪里邪了?!

You actually even used your own younger sister? Plus, what “turn you over a new leaf”? Just where was he evil?

不过没关系,病情恶化的目的已经达成,接下来只要手术不成功,他就有机会牺牲奉献了。现在的难点在于如何拖延手术时间。按照剧情,简忻的手术是在一年后,不过还没来得及手术,就被江余墨拉着去“殉情”了。尚可不确定自己如果提前手术,心脏是否能移植成功。

However, it was fine. The purpose to worsening his condition has already been reached, as long as the operation isn’t successful, then he can dedicate himself to sacrificing his life. What was difficult now was how to delay his operation. According to the storyline, Jian Xin’s operation was a year later. However, before she even had it, she had been dragged along by Jiang Yumo to “die together in the name of love”. Shang ke wasn’t quite sure if the heart transplant would go well if the operation happened earlier.

“如果住在你这里能经常见到简忻的话,我就勉为其难地住下吧。”尚可抱着抱枕往沙发上一躺。

“If I can often see Jian Xin by living here, then I will reluctantly live here.” Shang Ke held a long pillow and lied on the sofa.

听到他提到简忻,简沉锋心里一阵不爽。

When he heard him mention Jian Xin, Jian Chenfeng immediately felt unwell.

“江余墨,忻儿喜欢的是你大哥。”他必须让这家伙尽快认清事实。

“Jiang Yumo, the one Xin’er likes is your older brother.” He had to quickly make this guy see reality.

“没关系。”尚可一脸自信道,“我会让简忻知道,我比大哥更爱她。”

“That’s fine.” Shang Ke confidently said, “I will have Jian Xin know that I love her more than older brother.”

“江余墨,我妹妹到底哪里吸引你?”简沉锋语气不善地问。

“Jiang Yumo, just which part of my younger sister attracts you?” Jian Chenfeng’s tone was very dark.

可以不问这么烧脑的问题吗?他怎么会知道你妹妹哪里吸引江余墨?

Can you not ask such a brain-frying question? How should he know which part of Jian Xin attracts Jiang Yumo?

尚可绞尽脑汁,终于想到了一个答案:“那就是一种感觉,你不会明白的。”

Shang Ke racked his brain over it and finally thought of an answer, “It’s just a kind of feeling, you won’t understand it.”

简沉锋:“……”真是掐死他的心都有了。什么叫“你不会明白的”?他忒TM不知道有多明白好吗?

Jian Chenfeng: “……” He really has the feeling of throttling him. What “you won’t understand it”? Does he know just how fucking much he does understand it?

简沉锋暂时不想和他说话了,否则非得忍不住和他摊牌不可。

Jian Chenfeng didn’t felt like talking to him anymore for the time feeling, otherwise, he wouldn’t be able to hold back the urge to just do him in.

接下来,尚可着实过了一段悠闲惬意的日子。上班摸鱼打混,下班研究美食,闲暇时就去弹弹琴,逛逛街……只要忽略某个像连体婴一样和他形影不离的男人,生活还是很美好的。

Following that, Shang Ke started to live a leisure live. At work, he could take it easy and hang around. After work, he could research good food, when he’s free, he could play an instrument, take a walk… As long as he ignores the man that was inseparable like his conjoined twin, life was still quite wonderful.

随着手术的日子逐渐临近,他开始琢磨下一步行动。

As the operation day gradually came closer, he started to think about the next step of his plan.

然而,还没等他开始计划,简忻那边先出问题了。因为觉得对不起弟弟,江东霖对简忻若即若离,始终没有与她确立关系。简忻心情焦虑,几次发病,情况越来越严重。

However, before he had even planned anything, Jian Xin’s condition started to show problems. Because Jiang Donglin thought he was not as worthy as his brother, he continued to keep his distance from Jian Xin and did not establish his relationship with her. With Jian Xin so anxious, her disease had many onsets and her condition became worse and worse.

见此情景,江东霖终于放下芥蒂,真心接受简忻,并且每天到医院陪伴,关怀备至。但尽管如此,她的情况仍然不容乐观。

Seeing such a scene, Jiang Donglin finally laid down the obstructions in his heart and sincerely accepted Jian Xin. he accompanied her in the hospital everyday with the utmost care. But despite so, her situation was still not optimistic.

“什么时候手术?”简沉锋问简忻的主治医生。

“When is the operation?” Jian Chenfeng asked Jian Xin’s doctor.

医生回道:“简小姐发病越来越频繁,如果可以,最好就在半年内。”

The doctor replied, “Miss Jian’s disease is onsetting more and more frequently, if we can, it’s best to do so within half a year.”

“找到合适的心脏了吗?”

“Have you found a suitable heart?”

“我正要和你说这件事。”医生翻了一下资料,对简沉锋道,“不久前有个青年来做过配型,配型成功后,他就签了器官捐献协议,指定将自己的心脏捐给简小姐。”

“I was just about to tell you that.” the doctor flipped through his information and said to him, “Not too long ago, a young man came to do a matching. After the matching was successful, he signed an organ donor agreement, donating his heart to Miss Jian.”

“那个人自己来配型?他得了什么不治之症吗?”

“That person came to do a matching himself? Did he get some kind of incurable disease?”

“他说他患了脑瘤,最多只有两年可活。我当初就觉得他是最好的供体,两年之后,差不多就是简小姐动手术的时候。只是没想到简小姐情况恶化,手术必须提前了。”医生没注意简沉锋的表情变化,继续说道,“我晚点会联系那个人,看看他的病情怎么样。若他还没有发病的迹象,那我们恐怕要另外寻找供体了。”

“He said he was suffering from a brain tumor and has at most two years to live. At that time, I thought he was the best choice for a donor. Two years later is about the time Miss Jian was going to have her operation. We just didn’t expect Miss Jian’s condition to worse, so the operation has to be done earlier.” The doctor did not notice Jian Chenfeng’s expression changing as he continued, “I will go contact that person later and see how his condition is. If his condition isn’t showing any sign of worsening, then we can only find another donor.”

“他患了脑瘤?”简沉锋极力压抑心中翻腾的情绪,“把他的资料给我。”

“He had a brain tumor?” Jian Chenfeng forcefully pressed down his churning emotions as he said, “Give his information to me.”

“好的。”医生将资料递给简沉锋。这家医院属于简家,所以简沉锋随时可以查阅病人的资料。

“Alright.” The doctor handed the information to him. Because this hospital was the Jian Family’s, Jian Chenfeng could look up any ill person’s information at any time.

简沉锋接过资料,一眼就看到姓名那一栏写的赫然正是“江余墨”三个字。

When Jian Chenfeng took the information, the first thing he saw in shock in the name column was “Jiang Yumo” those three characters.

下一秒,他扔下资料就往自己家狂奔而去。

In the next second, he threw down the information and crazily headed for his house.

砰的一声打开门,简沉锋发现江余墨居然在墙边玩倒立!这种时候还给他玩倒立!

With a bang, the door was slammed open and the sight that greeted Jian Chenfeng was Jiang Yumo doing a handstand! Doing a handstand at this kind of time!

简沉锋的出现明显把他吓了一跳,身体一歪,眼看就要扑倒,简沉锋连忙冲过去扶住他,然后将他打横抱起,放到沙发上。

Jian Chenfeng’s appearance clearly frightened him as his body titled and he was about to fall. Jian Chenfeng quickly rushed over and held him, then he picked him up horizontally and placed him on the sofa.

简沉锋坐在茶几上,眼神阴鸷地盯着他。

Jian Chenfeng sat by the small side table, his expression dark as he stared at him.

尚可感觉他情绪不对,问道:“是不是简忻那边出事了?我听大哥说,她的病情似乎恶化了,要不要紧?什么时候动手术?”

Shang Ke felt his mood was a bit wrong, and asked, “Did something happen over at Jian Xin’s side? I heard from older brother how her condition worsen, is it urgent? When is she doing her operation?”

“简忻,简忻,江余墨,你心里除了简忻就没有别人吗?”简沉锋低吼一声。

“Jian Xin, Jian Xin, Jiang Yumo, do you not have any other people in your heart besides Jian Xin?” Jian Chenfeng lowly roared out.

尚可不明所以地望着他,火气怎么这么大?

Shang Ke looked at him in confusion, why is he so angry?

简沉锋看着他故作平静的表情就来气:“江余墨,你为了简忻连命都不要了?”他知道江余墨喜欢简忻,却从未想过他竟然爱得这么深。

Jian Chenfeng looked at his faked tranquil expression and became angrier. “Jiang Yumo, you don’t even want your life anymore for Jian Xin?” He knew Jiang Yumo liked Jian Xin, but he never knew his love ran so deeply.

“你说什么?”

“What did you say?”

“为什么要签那份器官捐赠协议?”简沉锋逼问。

“Why did you sign that organ donor agreement?” Jian Chenfeng intensely questioned him.

尚可先是一愣,随即笑道:“我患了脑瘤,无论手术成功率有多高,风险也是存在的。如果我在手术中出了什么意外,至少能让简忻得到一次重获新生的机会。”

Shang Ke was first stunned but immediately smiled, “I am suffering from a brain tumor, no matter how high the success rate of the operation, there is a risk involved. If something happens to me during the operation, at least I can give Jian Xin a chance to recover and live.”

“不要把我当傻子!”简沉锋怒不可遏,“你查出脑瘤时,情况并不严重,完全可以立刻动手术。但你不仅隐瞒病情,拖延手术时间,还故意将自己置于危险之中。江余墨,你TM一开始就打算用自己的命换简忻的命!”

“Don’t take me as a fool!” Jian Chenfeng was unable to restrain his anger anymore, “When you found out about your brain tumor, your situation wasn’t serious, you could immediately have underwent an operation. But not only did you hide your condition, you delayed your operation and even deliberately placed yourself in danger. Jiang Yumo, you fucker planned to use your life in exchange for Jian Xin’s all along!”

他根本不知道自己在看到那份器官捐赠协议时是什么心情,不只是愤怒,还有强烈的嫉妒!嫉妒自己的妹妹,嫉妒她轻而易举地得到了这份让他求而不得的深情。

He did not know what he felt when he saw that organ donor agreement, not only anger, he also felt an intense jealousy! Jealous of his younger sister, that she could so easily obtain the love he wanted but couldn’t get.

尚可有点被他的样子吓到了,不明白他为什么会这么激动。按理来说,即使知道他有心用自己的命换他妹妹的命,简沉锋要么表示震惊,要么被他“无私”的深情所感动,但如此疯狂的表现,实在有些出乎意料。

Shang Ke was bit frightened by his appearance. He did not know why he was so angry. According to reason, even if he knew he was using his life in exchange for his younger sister’s life, Jian Chenfeng would either express shock, or be moved by his “selflessness”. But this kind of craziness really was beyond his expectation.

“江余墨,我妹妹的命,不需要你来换!”简沉锋盯着他,一字一句道,“因为你的命,是属于我的!”

“Jiang Yumo, my sister’s life doesn’t need yours in exchange!” Jian Chenfeng stared at him, saying one line after line, “Because your life, is mine!”

说完,不待尚可反应,趋身将他压倒在沙发上,扶着他的后脑,重重吻了下去。

He did not wait for Shang Ke to react after the said those words, he overwhelmed and pressed the body below him to the sofa, held the back of his head and deeply kissed him.

尚可瞪大眼睛,这发展有点不对啊!

Shang Ke widen his eyes, this development is a bit wrong!


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  1. Jiang Donglin suddenly raised his head, “Since so, why didn’t you inform us?” If they knew, how could he had hurt Yumo?



    What the hell, jiang Donglin?!! You are his blood-related genuine big brother! You should have never ever hurt him for BL-God sake!!!
    What does it matter whether he is dying or not! You didn’t even bother to listen to him first.

    *i really want stomp him to death*

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    • *joins you to stump him to death*
      I never liked his brother from the moment he thought of planning mc’s burial at the dinning table. I was like wtf! Aren’t you his brother ?

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    • Ignobilia says:

      I agree to everything you said but..

      Ha! BL-God!

      That’s the best thing I have ever heard!

      I mean we should seriously start our own religion, with instead of nuns and priests we have experienced fujoshis and fudanshis!

      You funded it, so can I also be a follower? 🙂🙏

      Here is my vows:

      I promise to never come between two men’s love, I promise to spent several hours a day reading the bl – bibles and I promise to every day intensly pray for males to get together.

      So.. everyone, what do you guys think? Do you want to join?

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      • raokonesepsilon says:

        BL religious texts include Quickly Wear the Face of the Devil, Legendary Master’s Wife, and Founder of Diabolism~ Pick up your free copies today! Come to the dark side! Convert to BL-ism!!

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