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Chapter 254: Re: I Am An Evil Pen

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TL: Resonance

    可可在他的手心化成了粉末, 就这样消失在他的世界中。闻景戎不知道自己应该如何接受这个现实。

Keke turned into powder in his hand, and disappeared from his world just like this. Wen Jingrong did not know how he should accept this reality.

    事故发生后的一个多月，葛俊轩伤愈出院, 主动承担了调查事故原因的责任，并且对造成这一切的始作俑者——柏霖展开了疯狂的报复, 甚至不惜抛弃一半资产，与他死磕到底。

A month after the accident, Ge Junxuan recovered and was discharged from the hospital, took the responsibility to investigate the cause of the accident, and launched a crazy revenge against the person who caused it all—Bai Lin, even going so far as to abandon half of his assets to fight him to the end.

    他的命是尚可和闻景戎救的, 最后却害得闻景戎失去了心爱的人。

His life was saved by Shang Ke and Wen Jingrong, but in the end, he caused Wen Jingrong to lose his beloved person.

    闻景戎表面看起来毫无异常，每天按时上下班, 有条不紊地处理各种事务。但葛俊轩经常看到他习惯性地摸向自己空无一物的袖口，在签字的时候对着魔数笔出神，偶尔还会把他误叫成“可可”，食欲不振，日渐消瘦, 晚上吃安眠药也无法入睡。

Wen Jingrong looked normal on the surface, going to work every day on time and dealing with various matters in an orderly manner. However, Ge Junxuan often saw him habitually touching his empty cuffs. When signing documents, he would stare at the magic pen in a trance and occasionally called it “Keke” by mistake. He has a loss of appetite, resulting in him gradually losing weight, and he couldn’t sleep at night even after taking sleeping pills.

    “兄弟，振作点，不要再折磨自己了, 心里难受就和我痛快喝一场, 然后好好生活！”葛俊轩有一天终于忍不住扯着他的衣领大喊。

“Brother, cheer up, stop torturing yourself. If you feel sad, have a drink with me, then live well!” One day, Ge Junxuan finally couldn’t bear it any longer and pulled his collar and shouted.

    “我很好。”闻景戎拨开他的手，声音清冷，表情淡漠。

“I’m fine.” Wen Jingrong pulled his hand away, his voice cold and his expression indifferent.

    “你这副鬼样子叫‘很好’？没错，你的公司越做越大，钱越赚越多，但你有多久没睡过一个好觉了？一天工作二十个小时，你以为自己是铁人吗？”

“You call your ghastly look ‘fine’? Yes, your company is getting bigger and bigger and earning more and more money, but how long has it been since you’ve had a good night’s sleep? Working twenty hours a day, do you think you’re an iron man?”

    “俊轩，你不用担心，我最近在配合心理治疗，相信很快就会没事了。”闻景戎表现得很理智，丝毫看不出任何悲伤情绪。

“Junxuan, you don’t have to worry. I’ve been doing psychotherapy treatments recently. I believe I’ll be fine soon.” Wen Jingrong acted very rationally, and no sad emotion could be seen at all.

    葛俊轩盯着他看了半晌，最后咬咬牙：“好，希望你说到做到。”

Ge Junxuan stared at him for a long time and finally gritted his teeth and said, “Good, I hope you’ll do what you say.”

    闻景戎确实接受了心理治疗，每周一次，独自躺在舒适的椅子上，对着空荡荡的房间，诉说他与可可的点点滴滴。没有心理医生，没有专业辅导，只有他一个人的声音。

Wen Jingrong really received psychological treatment. Every once a week, he will lie alone on a comfortable chair and talk to the empty room about everything about him and Keke. There was no psychiatrist nor professional counseling. There was only his voice.

    “治疗”之后，闻景戎便会去商场，在魔数笔专柜，买一支魔数笔，摆放着家里的收藏室中。几年下来，他已经收藏了数百只魔数笔。

After the “treatment”, Wen Jingrong will go to the mall, go to the magic pen counter, and buy a magic pen to place in the collection room at home. A few years down the road, he had already collected hundreds of magic pens.

    他知道这种行为毫无意义，但他无法控制自己，甚至想将全世界所有魔数笔都买回来，也许他的可可，就在其中，等着他把他找回来。

He knew that this behavior was pointless, but he could not control himself. He even wanted to buy back all the magic pens in the world. Maybe his Keke would be among them, waiting for him to get him back.

    不仅如此，他还派人到处寻找知名的神学人士，企图招唤尚可的魂魄。

Not only that, he also sent people around to look for well-known theologians in an attempt to evocate Shang Ke’s soul.

    “招魂需要往生者的遗物，施主可有带来？”一名得道高僧对前来寻求帮助的闻景戎如此说道。

“Evocating the soul requires the relics of the deceased, has this benefactor brought them?” A taoist monk said so to Wen Jingrong who had come to seek help.

    闻景戎从口袋中拿出一个精巧的小盒子，小心翼翼地打开，里面装的是可可最后给他留下的东西——笔灰。

Wen Jingrong took out an exquisite little box from his pocket and carefully opened it. It contained the last thing Keke had left for him—pen ashes.

    高僧为他做了一场招魂法师，然后告诉他，这位往生者的灵魂已经离开这个世界了。

The monk did a soul evocation for him, and then told him that the soul of the person who had passed away had left this world.

    闻景戎不悲不怒，带着笔灰继续寻访其他高人。

Wen Jingrong was neither sad nor angry. He continued his search for other experts with the pen ashes.

    日复一日，年复一年，结果不是遇到骗子，就是得到相同的答案：可可已经离开这个世界了。

Day after day, year after year, the result was that he either met a liar or got the same answer: Keke had already left this world.

    “闻景戎，放弃吧！”葛俊轩看着他重复做着这些无用功，痛心道，“他走了，不在了。无论你怎么找，也找不回来了。闻景戎，忘记他吧，重新找一个恋人，快快乐乐地生活。”

“Wen Jingrong, give up!” Ge Junxuan looked at him repeating these useless efforts and said heartbroken, “He’s gone, he’s not here anymore. No matter how much you search, you can’t find him back. Wen Jingrong, forget about him. Find a new lover and live happily ever after.”

    “俊轩。”闻景戎平静道，“我觉得我似乎已经把全部的爱都给了这个人，这一生恐怕再也不会爱上别人了。从我有记忆开始，便一直在寻找他。曾经以为只是梦中的幻影，没想到他有一天真的出现了。你可知道，我当时有多喜悦。那种喜悦和满足，值得我为此付出一切。所以，我不会放弃寻找他，直到，生命尽头。”

“Junxuan.” Wen Jingrong said calmly, “I feel as if I have already given all my love to this person, and I am afraid I will never fall in love with anyone else in this life. I have been searching for him ever since I can remember. I thought it was just a phantom in my dream, but I never thought he would really appear one day. You know how happy I was then. That joy and satisfaction, it is worth giving everything I have for it. Therefore, I will not give up looking for him until the end of my life.”

    闻景戎如此说服葛俊轩，也如此说服自己。

Wen Jingrong convinced Ge Junxuan this way, and also convinced himself this way.

    是的，他不会放弃，他相信总有一天，可可还会回来的。

Yes, he will not give up. He believes that one day, Keke will come back.

    带着这份希望，闻景戎走过了一个个寂寞而漫长的日日夜夜。

With this hope, Wen Jingrong walked through a lonely and long everyday.

    闻氏集团的产业稳步扩张，财富和声望以极快的速度冲上世界前列，成就了一段白手起家的传奇，然而，他依旧在寻找那个可以与他分享荣誉的人。

The Wen Group’s industry expanded steadily, and its wealth and prestige surged to the top of the world at a very fast pace, accomplishing a legend of starting a business from scratch. However, he was still looking for the person with whom he could share the honor with.

    直到有一天，闻景戎遇到了一位真正的高人。他问闻景戎：“你要找的人和你是什么关系？”

Until one day, Wen Jingrong met a true master. He asked Wen Jingrong, “What is the relationship between you and the person you are looking for?”

    “恋人，他是我的恋人。”

“Lovers, he is my lover.”

    “你们很相爱？”

“You two love each other very much?”

    “是的。”

“Yes.”

    “那么，你可知道他并非凡人？”

“Then, do you know that he is not a mortal?”

    闻景戎眼中闪烁出一抹光彩，极力压抑心中的激动，回道：“是的，我知道。”

There was a sparkle in Wen Jingrong’s eyes. He tried his best to suppress the excitement in his heart and reply, “Yes, I know.”

    “他乃煞气之物，而你是福光之体。我很好奇，你们竟然会成为恋人。”

“He is a being who absorbs negative energy, while you are a body of blessing. I’m curious that you guys actually become lovers.”

    “什么意思？”

“What do you mean?”

    “你身上的福光来自于先人积善，保你一生富贵，百邪不侵。而你的恋人，身带煞气，按理来说，根本不可能靠近你。”

“The blessing coming from your body comes from the goodness accumulated by your ancestors, which blesses you with a lifetime of wealth and away from evil. Your lover, on the other hand, carries negative energy. By right, it is impossible for him to get close to you.”

    “若是靠近又如何？”

“What happens if he comes close?”

    “靠近就会被你身上的福光净化，承受焚身之苦。”

“If he comes close, he will be purified by the blessings on your body and suffer the pain of burning his body.”

    闻景戎脸色骤变：“你的意思是，他待在我身边时，一直承受着被福光净化的痛苦？”

Wen Jingrong’s face suddenly changed: “You mean, he has been suffering the pain of being purified by the blessing while staying by my side?”

    “是的。所以我想，他一定很爱你，否则也不会不顾魂飞魄散的危险，日日忍受福光的净化，也要和你在一起。”

“Yes. So I think he must love you very much, otherwise he wouldn’t have stayed with you despite the danger of his soul being scattered and enduring the purification of the blessing everyday.”

    闻景戎脑中一阵嗡响，心脏剧烈颤抖，感觉有些无法呼吸。

There was a buzzing in Wen Jingrong’s head. His heart trembled violently and he found it difficult to breathe.

    他从来没注意到这些。在他靠近时，可可不经意的抗拒，不经意的蹙眉，不经意的痛楚……他最初只当是他不喜欢自己。后来，可可接受了他，亲密的拥抱，温柔的抚慰，再也不曾在他面前表露过任何不适。在他享受甜蜜时，可可却在承受着自己给他带来的的痛苦。

He never noticed this. When he got close, Keke’s unconscious resistance, unconscious frown, unconscious pain… He initially only took it that Shang Ke didn’t like him. Afterwards, Keke accepted him, his intimate hugs, gentle caresses, and never again showed any discomfort in front of him. While he was enjoying the sweetness, Keke was suffering from the pain he had caused him.

    什么福光，什么煞气？闻景戎很想将这个胡说八道的人痛斥一番，但心里却隐隐有个声音告诉他，这是事实。

What blessing, what negative energy? Wen Jingrong wanted to rebuke this person who was speaking nonsense, but there was a faint voice in his heart telling him that this was the truth.

    他一直以来的坚持，仿佛在这一刻全部崩塌。他以为付出了所有，却对尚可的付出浑然无知。他把最好的都留给了自己，从始至终都没有任何怨言。

The persistence he had been holding on to seemed to collapse at this moment. He thought he had given his everything, but he was oblivious to what Shang Ke had given. Shang Ke saved the best for him without any complaints from the beginning to the end.

    他怎么能如此包容，如此云淡风轻？在他看不见的地方，他是如何缓解那些痛苦的？

How could he be so tolerant and carefree? How did Shang Ke relieve all that pain where he(WJR) couldn’t see?

    “离开你，对他而言或许也是一种解脱。”

“Leaving you may also be a relief for him.”

    临行前，那位高人对他说了这么一句话。

Before leaving, that expert said this to him.

    这句话，彻底打破了闻景戎的希望，将他推入深渊。

These words completely shattered Wen Jingrong’s hope and pushed him into the abyss.

    离开他，是一种解脱？

Leaving him was a relief?

    自己的爱，留给他的难道都是伤痛吗？

Has his love only brought pain to him?

    他日复一日的寻找，为的只是让他继续回到他身边忍受焚身之苦？

He searched day after day just to let him return to his side to endure the suffering of a burning body again?

    那么，他为什么还要执着寻找？

Then, why should he still persist in his search?

    不如放他自由，也放自己自由……

Why not set him free, and also set himself free… 

    闻景戎笑了，笑得很残酷。

 Wen Jingrong smiled, and his smile was very cruel.

    不，他不会放手。

No, he will not let go.

    无论有多痛苦，他都不会放手。因为可可选择了他，即使痛苦，依然选择了他。

No matter how painful it is, he will not let go. Because Keke chose him. Despite the pain, he still chose him.

    所以，他也一样。

Therefore, he is also the same.

    他愿意为可可放弃一生富贵，抹灭满身福光。

He is willing to give up a lifetime of wealth for Keke and erase his full body of blessing on him.

    如果可可是邪煞之物，那么，他也不做福荫之人。

If Keke is an evil being that requires negative energy, then he will not be a man with blessing.

    闻景戎开始利用手中的财富和人脉，与ZF高官暗通款曲，上下勾结。

Wen Jingrong began to use the wealth and connections he had to secretly communicate with senior government officials and colluded all about.

    结果，与他接触的官员，一个个落马，只有他依然屹立不倒。不仅如此，他培养的大批亲信，先后在政坛站稳脚跟，建立自己的派系和势力。

As a result, the officials he came in contact with all fell one by one, but only he remained standing. Not only that, the large number of cronies he nurtured all had a firm foothold in politics and established their own faction and power.

    闻景戎真正见识了福光的力量，无论他做什么，都能逢凶化吉，一路凯歌。肆无忌惮的折腾，换来的竟然是更多的财富和权力。

Wen Jingrong truly experienced the power of his blessing. No matter what he does, all the evil will turn good and his path was always smooth sailing. All his reckless actions actually brought him more wealth and power.

    身上的福光，如同诅咒一般，让他一世风光，一生寂寞。

The blessing on his body was like a curse. It let him be very successful in life, but also gave him a lifetime of loneliness.

    直到他终老，也没能找到他要找的人。

Until his final years, he still couldn’t find the person he was looking for.

    直到他闭眼，才终于承认：他的可可，已经离开这个世界了。

Only when he closed his eyes did he finally admit: His Keke has already left this world.

    他用谎言，坚持走到了生命尽头。

He persevered to the end of his life using a lie.

    可可，我们，还有来生吗？

Keke, do we still have a next life?

    弥留间，他仿佛听到可可笑着对他说：“景戎，我们来生再见。”

When dying, he seemed to have heard Keke say to him with a smile, “Jingrong, we will meet again in the next life.”

    好，来生再见。

Okay, see you in the next life.

    闻景戎脸上露出释怀的笑容，如同稚子一般，安静地睡去……

Wen Jingrong’s face showed a relieved smile, and he quietly fell asleep like a child… 

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