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Chapter 19: My Heart Beats For You (X)


医生护士们很快回神,正准备将尚可送往急救室,却听他开口道:“简沉锋,简沉锋,你别忘了,我签了心脏捐赠协议,如果,如果我这次没挺过来,你一定要把我心脏移植给简忻。”

The doctor and nurses quickly returned to their senses, preparing to send Shang Ke into the emergency treatment room. But then they heard him say, “Jian Chenfeng, Jian Chenfeng, don’t forget, I sighed a heart donation agreement, if, if I don’t live this time, you must transplant my heart to Jian Xin.”

尚可转头朝简沉锋的方向望去,然而简沉锋并不在那个位置。其他人马上明白,尚可的眼睛已经看不清任何东西了。

Shang Ke turned his head in the direction where Jian Chenfeng was at, but Jian Chenfeng was not there. The other people understood, Shang Ke’s eyes were already blinded.

简沉锋握住他的手,两眼发红,声音沙哑道:“余墨,你连脑瘤手术都挺过了,这次肯定也行!不要放弃,我等着和你一起回家。”

Jian Chenfeng gripped his hand, his eyes turning red, his voice hoarse, “Yumo, you have lived through a brain tumor operation, this time must be fine too! Don’t give up, I am still waiting for you to return home together.”

躺在旁边的简忻听到尚可的话,大脑瞬间一片空白。什么?心脏捐赠协议?江余墨要将自己的心脏移植给她?

When Jian Xin heard Shang Ke’s words by the side, her mind immediately went blank. What? Heart donation agreement? Jiang Yumo was transplanting his heart to her?

天啊,这个人到底为她付出了多少?难怪哥哥会对他另眼相看,东霖也愿意为了他退让。他为了自己,竟然连命都可以不要。自己以往对他的苛责,此刻都化为了无尽的愧疚和感动。

God, just how much had he paid for her? No wonder her older brother treated him so favorable, and Donglin wished to move aside for him. For her, he didn’t even want his life anymore. She had harshly criticized him in the past, and now, it all turned into endless guilt and touching.

简忻只觉得心脏一阵剧痛,呼吸开始急促,脸色也变得灰白,就像一条被搁浅的小鱼。耳边人声驳杂,而她却逐渐失去了意识……

Jian Xin could only feel her heart pain, her breathing began to rush and her complexion paled. She was like a stranded fish. The sounds by her all turned chaotic and she gradually lost consciousness…

尚可和简忻分别被送往急救室。

Shang Ke and Jian Xin were sent to separated emergency rooms.

简沉锋焦急地守在急救室外,当他从江东霖那里了解事情始末后,想也没想,抬手就对着江东霖的脸狠狠挥了一拳。

Jian Chenfeng worriedly kept watch outside the emergency room. When he learned the course of the events from Jiang Donglin, he didn’t even think and ruthlessly gave him a fist to the face.

江东霖没有反抗,硬受了这一拳,整个人失魂落魄地跌坐在地上。

Jiang Donglin did not resist it and took the first, his entire person fell onto the ground, dazed.

简沉锋脸色阴沉地吓人,愤怒地瞪了江东霖一眼,没有再说一句话。只是靠在墙壁上,静静等待。

Jian Chenfeng’s face was so frighteningly dark and glared at him angrily. He did not say another word and just leaned against the wall, stilly waiting.

江家和简家的长辈们在接到消息后,先后赶到医院。

The people of the Jiang and Jian Family both rushed to the hospital when they received the news.

对于他们的追问,简沉锋已经没有精力应付,心中不断滋生的恐惧让他全身发冷,仿佛正在煎熬地等待死神的宣判。

To their questions, Jian Chenfeng did not have the energy to deal with it. An unending fear caused his whole body to chill, like he was waiting in torment for the Death God’s decision.

这时,尚可所在的抢救室走出一名医生,他看着殷殷期盼的家属,表情沉重道:“病人伤势很重,治愈的希望不大,就算侥幸保住性命,这辈子也只能瘫痪在床。但无论如何,我们还是会尽力救治。可是就在刚才,病人主动要求中止治疗。”

At this moment, a doctor walked out from the emergency room of Shang Ke’s and looked at their hopeful and expectation gazes, heavily saying, “The patient’s injuries are very heavy, the chance for recovery isn’t very high. Even if his life is saved, he can only lay on the bed paralyzed. But no matter what, we will do our best to treat him. However, just now the patient requested to cease treatment.”

“什么?中止治疗?”江母不敢置信,“为什么?”

“What? Cease treatment?” Mother Jiang could not believe it, “Why?”

不用猜也知道那家伙在打什么主意,他想把自己的心脏留给简忻!

He didn’t even need to guess to know what that guy was planning. He wanted to leave his heart for Jian Xin!

到这时候,他心里依然只有简忻!

At this time, his heart still only has Jian Xin!

简沉锋忍住悲怒,语气强硬道:“别听他的,给我尽力救治,瘫痪也好,残疾也好,重要的是把他救活。”

Jian Chenfeng endured his anger and unyieldingly said, “Don’t listen to him, continue to treat him! Paralyze is fine, disable is also fine, the important part is for him to live!”

医生看向简沉锋,认真问道:“简少爷,你确定吗?”

The doctor looked at Jian Chenfeng, seriously asking, “Young Master Jian, are you sure?”

简忻也在抢救,心脏负荷过大,已经危在旦夕。简沉锋的决定,最终结果可能是两个都救不回来。如果选择放弃江余墨,至少简忻有很大的几率活下来,而且是四肢健全地活下来。

Jian Xin was also in emergency treatment, her heart was overly shocked and on the brink of a crisis. Jian Chenfeng’s decision, might cause neither to be able to be saved. If he chose to give up on Jiang Yumo, at least Jian Xin would have a great chance to survive, and it’s soundly surviving.

简沉锋正要回答,却见一名护士从抢救室跑出来,对医生喊道:“黄医生,病人拒绝配合,快不行了。”

Jian Chenfeng was just about to reply when he saw a nurse rush out and shouted to the doctor, “Doctor Huang, the patient refuses to coordinate and won’t last much longer.”

简沉锋闻言,快步冲到门口,朝急救室里面大喊:“江余墨,你给我听着,好好活下去,我妹妹的生命不是你的责任!”

Jian Chenfeng rushed to the entrance and shouted inside, “Jiang Yumo, listen to me, live! My younger sister’s life isn’t your responsibility!”

对不起,简沉锋。

I’m sorry, Jian Chenfeng.

这次他是真的放弃了。

This time, he was really giving up.

意识模糊的尚可缓缓闭上了眼睛,周围的一切仿佛都逐渐远去……

Through Shang Ke’s vague consciousness, he slowly closed his eyes. Everything in his surroundings seem to gradually go far away…

还好没有接受简沉锋的感情,如果一开始就不曾拥有,想必应该也不会因为失去而太过悲伤。

Luckily he did not accept Jian Chenfeng’s feelings, if they didn’t have anything in the first place, then he shouldn’t be too sad when he lose him.

尚可最终抢救无效,不治身亡,他的心脏随即被移植给简忻。

Shang Ke’s final treatment did not work and died, his heart was immediately transplanted to Jian Xin.

移植手术很成功,也没有出现严重的排斥现象,只等恢复期一过,即可健康出院。

The organ transplant operation was very successful, and no grave rejection appeared. After her recovery period, she could leave the hospital with a clean bill of health.

江家父母直到手术前才知道儿子签了心脏捐赠协议,虽然没有反对,但对于儿子的死,他们始终无法释怀。特别是江东霖,这辈子恐怕都无法摆脱间接害死弟弟的愧疚。

Jiang Family only found out their son had signed a heart donation agreement during the operation, although they did not protest against it, they are unable to obtain peace with their son’s death. Especially Jiang Donglin, in this life, he likely would be unable to break free of the guilt of indirectly killing his younger brother.

“简忻,今天出院,我来接你回家。”简沉锋走进病房,面沉如水地看向正站在窗口的女孩。

“Jian Xin, I came to take you home for your discharge from the hospital.” Jian Chenfeng entered the sickroom, his face like water as he looked at the girl standing by the window.

一个月前,他也对余墨说过同样的话。但是,他却无能将那个人带回家。

A month ago, he had once said the same thing to Yumo. But, he never had the chance to take him back him.”

简忻转过身,眼中带着淡淡的哀伤。

Jian Xin turned back, a faint trace of grief in her eyes.

她沉默地跟着哥哥走出病房,一直到上了车,她才开口道:“哥,你恨我吗?”

She silently followed her older brother out of the sickroom, and did not speak until they were in the car, “Brother, you hate me don’t you?”

“你是我妹妹,我不恨你,”简沉锋目视前方,语气平淡道,“但我,永远都不会原谅你。”

“You are my younger sister, I do not hate you.” Jian Chenfeng faced ahead, his tone dull, “But I, will never forgive you.”

简忻,你失去了一个愿意用生命爱你的人,而我,失去了一个值得我用一生去爱的人……

Jian Xin, you lost someone who was willing to use his life to love you. And I, lost someone who I was willing to use my entire lifetime to love….

【恭喜宿主完成附加任务1。】

【Congratulations to Host for completing additional mission 1.】

【这个世界一共完成一个主线任务和一个附加任务,请宿主接收奖励。体质+2(+1),记忆力+5(+2),精神力+10(+5),美貌+10(+2),寿命+1(+1),另外可学习一种新技能。】

【You have completely one main mission and one additional mission in this world, may Host please receive your reward. Constitution +2 (+1), Memory +5 (+2), Spiritual Power +10 (+5), Beauty +10 (+2), Life Span +1 (+1). You can learn one additional skill.】

尚可还沉浸在自己的小忧郁中,生离死别的滋味真不好受。虽然他不是真的死亡,但任务世界里的人并不知道,他们为对自己付出了感情,为自己的死伤心难过。这让尚可感觉很不是滋味。

Shang Ke was still immersed in his melancholy, the taste of parting in life and deat hwas really unpleasant. Although he didn’t really did, to the people in the mission world, they don’t know and really paid with their feelings, feeling sad for his death. This made Shang Ke feel rather upset.

【宿主的死亡并非毫无意义,每次牺牲,都可以拯救他人的生命。如果还是觉得愧疚,那就付出相同的感情。宿主所经历的世界都是真实存在的,若想取之必先予之,用心体验每段人生,不要留下任何遗憾。】

【Host’s death is not senseless, for every time you sacrificed your life, you can save another life. If you still feel guilty, then you can pay with the same feelings. The worlds Host experiences all truly exists, if you desire it, then diligently experience every life, and don’t leave behind regrets. 】

尚可豁然道:“你说的对,有这样的机会经历不同的人生,我还有什么不满的?我决定了,以后我会竭尽所能地将三个任务全部完成,然后留在那个世界享受人生。活得越长,收获越多,我不该轻易放弃自己的生命。”

Shang Ke understood and said, “You’re right, this kind of chance to experience different lives, what can I be unhappy about? I’ve decided, I will do my best to do everything I can to complete all three missions, then stay in that world and enjoy life. The longer one lives, the more one learn. I should not so easily give up on life.”

【选择你想要学习的技艺吧。】系统将技艺一一展开。

【Choose the skill you want to learn.】The system revealed the skills one by one.

尚可发现他最想学的武术和魔法还是灰色状态,不过增加了“舞蹈”和“编织”。

Shang Ke noticed that the magic and martial arts he wanted to learn the most were still gray, but “dancing” and “weaving” were available.

编织?尚可有些好奇,决定就选这一项了。

Weaving? Shang Ke was a bit curious and decided to chose this skill.

之前选的乐器,还可以另选一两种乐器进行学习,厨艺也能继续进行晋级训练。

The Musical Instruments he chose before, he can choose another one or two instrument to learn. His Cooking skill can also continue to be trained.

十年后,尚可从百炼空间出来,一身文艺气质,随便回眸一笑,都能萌化无数少女的心。

Ten years later, Shang Ke walked out from the Hundred Training Space. His entire body was filled with a scholarly aura, a single smile would melt countless girls hearts.

准备进入下一个世界前,尚可突然想起一个问题:“系统,我在两个世界分别遇到的拉威尔和简沉锋是不是同一个人?”

Before he was about to enter the next world, SHang Ke suddenly remembered a question, “System, Ravel and Jian Chenfeng who I met in the other two world, are they the same person?”

系统:【请自行揣摩。】

System:【Please figure it out yourself.】

“我觉得是!”

“I think they are!”

【猜中也没有奖励。】

【There is no reward even if you guessed correctly.】

尚可:(#‵′)凸

Shang Ke: (#‵ ′)凸

高冷的系统真让人心碎。

The high and mighty cold System really breaks people’s hearts.

意识一阵模糊,尚可被系统传送到下一个世界。

His consciousness blurred and Shang Ke was sent to the next world by the System.

当他睁开眼,眼前所见的一切,瞬间让他整个人都不好了!

When he opened his eyes, everything before his eyes made his entire person felt this was bad!


TL Note: This extra is not in the original raws, deleted by the author because it no longer fits what happens later down the line. Take it with a grain of salt ~

番外:簡沉鋒

Extra: Jian Chenfeng

簡家與江家有不少生意來往,江家長子江東霖,待人溫和有禮,品性頗佳;而次子江余墨卻是典型的紈褲子弟,不學無術。所以,在得知江余墨正在追求自己的妹妹時,簡沉鋒對他抱有很大的敵意。

Jian Family and Jiang Family often did business together. Jiang Family’s oldest son Jiang Donglin treated people gently with courtesy, his nature was very fine. Meanwhile, the second son Jiang Yumo was the model of a dandy, ignorant and incompetent. As such, when Jian Chenfeng found out Jiang Yumo was pursuing his younger sister, he had a lot of enmity to him.

後來江伯父請父親幫忙,讓江余墨來簡家的公司實習,他便打算好好審視此人。

Afterwards, when Father Jiang asked his father to help and let Jiang Yumo intern at Jian Family’s company, he decided to properly examine this man.

第一次在公司見面,他不留情面地將他挑剔了一番,本以為可以把這位少爺給氣走,誰知他竟然平靜地接受了他的安排,連一句惡言都沒有。

The first time they met at the company, he did not give him any face and fussed with him. He had thought that this young master wouldn’t be able to endure his anger and walk out, but he had unexpectedly calmly accepted his arrangements and didn’t even say one line back.

外界傳言他囂張跋扈,如今看來,卻也不可盡信,簡沉鋒因此對他稍稍改觀。

Rumors outside said that he was arrogant and despotic, but from the looks of it, it could not be trusted. Jian Chenfeng thus changed his opinion of him slightly.

他讓崔秘書暗中留意此人一舉一動,看看他的品性到底如何。

He had Secretary Cui to secretly take note of his every action and see how was his character.

但是,僅僅一天,崔秘書就對他產生了好感。他覺得江余墨與傳聞中的完全不同,如他所言:「脾氣好,適應快,交際能力也不錯。」

However, in just a day, Secretary Cui already obtained a good opinion of him. He felt that Jiang Yumo was completely different from the rumors, with his words: “His temper is good, adapts fast and his communication ability is pretty good.”

更令他意外的是,江余墨泡咖啡的水平非常不錯。喝過他泡的咖啡之後,他毫不猶豫表示:「以後我的咖啡都交給他泡吧。」

What surprised him even more was that Jiang Yumo’s ability to make coffee was very good. After he drank the coffee made by him, he said without any hesitation: “My coffee will all be made by him in the future.”

第二天,崔秘書又在江余墨身上發現了其他閃光點,記憶力強,廚藝精湛,善於交際,適應能力好。

The next day, Secretary Cui found other shining points of Jiang Yumo. His memory was strong, his cooking skills exquisite, good at communication and adapting.

簡沉鋒對此感到新奇,當即就決定讓江余墨幫他帶便當,而他果然也沒讓自己失望,第一份便當就把他震撼到了。

Jian Chenfeng felt it was a novelty, so he had Jiang Yumo bring him a lunchbox and as expected, he did not disappoint him. The first lunchbox was enough to shake him.

簡沉鋒不得不承認,自己之所以對他徹底改觀,主要是因為那些美味而華麗的便當。

Jian Chenfeng had no choice but to admit that the reason why he changed his attitude toward him was completely because of those delicious and gorgeous lunchboxes.

真正相處之後,他才發現江余墨是一個非常不錯的人,性格開朗,舉止得體,與他在一起,總會讓人感覺心情愉悅。

Only after truly interacting with him did he discover that Jiang Yumo was a very good man, he was very cheerful and polite, being together with him would always make a person feel happy.

不過,他追求自己妹妹的手段實在太平常,僅僅只是每天給妹妹訂一束玫瑰。簡沉鋒不僅暗想,難道是因為以前太主動把妹妹嚇到了,所以開始採取以退為進的方式?

However, the way he pursued his younger sister was just too normal, he merely sent her a rose every day. Jiang Chenfeng couldn’t help but think to himself, was it because he had been too active in pursuing her and scared her, so he started to use such a way?

簡沉鋒不知道處於什麼原因,並沒有提醒他。即使發現妹妹與江東霖越走越近,也只是在一旁觀望。

Jian Chenfeng did not know why he chose to do so, and did not bother to warn him. Even when he discovered that his younger sister was becoming closer to Jiang Donglin, he had just stayed aside and watched.

簡沉鋒第一次察覺自己的心意,是那天心血來潮,跑去江余墨家蹭飯的時候。他無意中發現江余墨身上有很多的淤青,深淺不一,明顯已經有一段時間了。

The first time Jian Chenfeng noticed his feelings was when he had gone to Jiang Yumo’s home on a whim. He had accidentally found out Jiang Yumo’s body had many bruises in varying states of recovery, it was clear that it has been like this for a while.

他莫名覺得生氣,將他拖到沙發想看個究竟。他壓在他身上,扯開他的衣服,看著他衣衫凌亂地躺在自己身-下,兩人如此近距離的接觸,肌膚不經意的摩ca,讓他難以克制產生了異樣的反應。

He felt angry for some unknown reason and dragged him to the sofa to what was going on. He pressed down on him, pulling open his clothes. Seeing him lying there with his clothing messy and in such close range with him, their skin touching and rubbing, caused a reaction that he was hardpress to control.

那一瞬間,他有些慌亂,然後倉皇而逃。

In that moment, he panicked a bit and ran away.

接連幾天,他腦中都是江余墨的影子,也逐漸意識到自己對他抱著怎樣的心思。但他是個男人,而且喜歡的是自己的妹妹。他猶豫著是否隱藏這份感情,讓它成為永遠的秘密。

In the following days, his mind was full of Jian Yumo’s figure and he gradually became aware of what kind of feelings he had toward him. But he was a man, and the one he liked was his younger sister. He hesitated on if he should hide those feelings, to let it forever remain as a secret.

最終做出選擇,並沒有花費太多時間。

When he finally made his decision, he did not spend too much time on it.

得知江余墨加入了極限運動俱樂部,簡沉鋒這才弄清他身上的傷痕是從何而來。為此,他頗為氣惱,所以收到那傢伙正在海邊玩水上摩托的消息後,他想也想便衝了過去。

When he found that Jiang Yumo was a member of the extreme sport club, Jian Chenfeng finally understood where his injuries came from. In regards to it, he was rather angry. So when he obtained information that he was playing jet skiing at the beach, he didn’t even think through it and went.

簡沉鋒並不喜歡喧鬧的環境,他這次來海邊,主要是為了監督江余墨,擔心他玩得太過火。

Jian Chenfeng did not like noisy environments, but the main reason he went to the beach this time was to control Jiang Yumo. He was worried that the other would play too much.

但是,當他看到那個駕駛著水上摩托肆意衝擊海浪的身影時,他的心,徹底淪陷了。

However, when he saw that figure that was piloting a jet ski and recklessly rushing the waves, his heart thoroughly fell for him.

他的張揚,他的瀟灑,他的笑容,他的爽朗……一切的一切,都像磁石一般,吸引他的目光。

His brashness, his confidence, his smile, his brightness…everything of everything, were like a magnet that attracted his gaze.

那時他便決定,這個人,他要定了。同性也好,有喜歡的人也好,他都會想盡辦法讓愛上自己。

At that time, he decided. This man, he wanted no matter what. It was fine they were the same gender, it was fine that he liked someone, he will think of his own ways to make him fall for him.

活動結束,他邀請他吃飯,同時琢磨著如何才能將這個人追到手。

After the event, he had invited him to a meal while he thought about how to pursue this man so he would fall for him as well.

然而,只是去了一趟洗手間的功夫,一切都變了。

However, in a short period of time to the bathroom, everything changed.

他遇上了余墨的哥哥江東霖,他和簡忻也在這家餐廳吃飯。兩人不放心簡忻,一起去洗手間查看情況。剛走過拐角,便看到余墨扶著呼吸急促的簡忻靠在洗手間外的牆壁上。

He met up with Yumo’s older brother Jiang Donglin, who had came with Jian Xin to this same restaurant to eat. The two were worried about Jian Xin and both went to the bathroom to look at the situation. Just when they had walked over, they saw Yumo supporting Jian Xin who was breathing hard on the wall outside the bathrooms.

簡忻有心臟病,受不了刺激,江東霖見此情景,立刻沖上去將余墨一把推開。

Jian Xin has a heart disease and could not take stimulations. When Jiang Donglin saw this seen, he immediately rushed up to push aside Yumo.

余墨站立不穩,向後一倒,後腦撞在了牆上。當時誰也沒想到,這一撞會如此嚴重。簡忻的情況很快就穩定下來,而余墨卻暈倒了。

Yumo wasn’t standing stably and fell backward, the back of his head hitting the wall. Back then, no one would had expected that this one hit would be so serious. Jian Xin’s situation was quickly stabilized but Yumo fainted.

送往醫院後,他們才知道,余墨竟然患有腦瘤。得知這個消息時,他很震驚,也很恐懼。

They only found out after they had sent him to the hospital that Yumo had contracted a brain tumor. When they found out, he was in extreme shock and fear.

江東霖更是自責不已,簡沉鋒對他頗為不滿,卻也沒多說什麼。

Jiang Donglin blamed himself and Jian Chenfeng was also really resentful toward him, but he did not say much.

他關注的是,余墨早知道自己患有腦瘤,但他不僅隱瞞家人,而且還不要命地參加極限運動。

What he paid attention to was how Yumo already knew he had contracted a brain tumor, yet he not only had he hid it from his family, he also recklessly participated in extreme sports without a care for his life.

而他醒來的第一句話卻是問:「簡忻還好吧?」

But the first thing he asked when he woke up was: “Is Jian Xin okay?”

自己差點就沒命了,還有空擔心別人?

He almost lost his life, yet he still had the energy to worry about others?

「她沒事,你還是先關心一下自己吧。」簡沉鋒忍不住問他,「為什麼你明知自己患了腦瘤,還要參加那些危險的極限運動?」

“She’s fine, you should be worried about yourself first.” Jian Chenfeng couldn’t endure it and asked him, “Why do you still participate in those dangerous extreme sports when you are fully aware of your state?”

「我不能因為生病就放棄自己的愛好。」江余墨回得理直氣壯。

“I cannot give up my hobby just became I am ill.” Jiang Yumo had self-righteously replied.

但簡沉鋒隱隱覺得這並非真正的理由。

But Jian Chenfeng had a vague feeling that wasn’t the true reason.

直到他從簡忻的主治醫生那裡聽說,有一個人與簡忻配型成功,並且簽下了心臟捐贈手術。而這個人,正是江余墨。

Then he heard from Jian Xin’s doctor that someone matched her heart type and had signed a heart donation agreement, and that person, was Jiang Yumo.

簡沉鋒不敢相信,余墨為了妹妹,竟然願意將自己的心臟捐出來。他這才知道余墨得知自己的病情,選擇隱瞞並且不要命地參加極限運動是為了什麼,他根本沒打算治療,而是想用自己的命換簡忻一命!

Jian Chenfeng couldn’t believe it, that Yumo was willing to donate his heart for his younger sister. Only then did he understand why Yumo had chosen to hide his state and participated in extreme sports without regard for his life. He never planned to be treated, he wanted to use his life in exchange for Jian Xin’s!

簡沉鋒的震撼得無以復加,憤怒心疼的同時,又難以克制心中的嫉妒。他任由簡忻誤會他,糟蹋他的心意,成全她與江東霖,自己卻心甘情願默默付出。

While Jian Chenfeng’s shock couldn’t increase any further, both angry and distress, he also couldn’t restrain the jealousy in his heart. He allowed Jian Xin to misunderstand him, insult his feelings and help her and Jiang Donglin while he willingly paid the price silently.

他到底是有多傻?

Just how stupid was he?

簡沉鋒強硬地將他帶回自己的家,鎖在自己身邊,悉心看管,不容許他再做出任何傷害自己的行為。

Jian Chenfeng forcefully took him to his home and locked him to his side, putting his everything into taking care of him. He would not allow him to do anything to injure himself.

與他在一起生活,儘管狀況頻發,但他的心卻是滿足的。

Living together with him satisfied his heart no matter what happened.

他對余墨說:「你的命,是屬於我的。」他相信他總有一天也會接受自己。

He said to him: “Your life, belongs to me.” He believed that one day Yumo would accept him.

吻上他的那一刻,簡沉鋒很清楚地知道,這個人就是他想要守護一生的戀人。無論未來的路有多難走,只要有他相伴,自己都甘之如飴。

When he kissed him, Jian Chenfeng completely knew that this was the man who he wanted to guard for his entire life as his lover. No matter how hard the future gets, as long as he was by his side, he would gladly endure it.

簡沉鋒的努力並沒有白費,余墨順利熬到手術。手術前,他問他:「等你做完手術,我們就在一起試試吧。」

Jian Chenfeng’s effort was not for naught, Yumo smoothly endured to the day of the operation. Before the operation, he had asked him: “When your operation is over, we can try being together.”

他回答:「手術成功再說。」

He answered: “We can talk about it after the operation is successful.”

他沒有直接拒絕,這讓簡沉鋒心中充滿期待。等到手術成功,他更是欣喜得差點喊上一句「哈利路亞」。

He didn’t directly refuse him, filling Jian Chenfeng’s heart with expectation. When the operation was successful, he was so happy he almost shouted out “Hallelujah”.

他以為,他們兩人終於可以開始了。

He had thought they the two of them could finally start.

為了迎接余墨出院,簡沉鋒訂了滿滿一屋子玫瑰。

In order to escort Yumo out of the hospital, Jian Chenfeng ordered a whole house of roses.

他已經計畫好了,先陪他去父母家吃頓,然後帶他回家,在玫瑰花海中告白,正式圈定他的一生。

He had already planned it out, they would first go to Yumo’s parents house and eat, then return to his house, confess among the roses, and official set his life with him.

他幾乎有些迫不及待了,從未想過自己居然也有如此沉不起的時候。

He was very impatient for it, he had never thought that he would have such a day where he couldn’t endure.

然而,命運卻在他即將迎來幸福時,和他開了一個天大的玩笑。

However, fate played a great joke on him when he was just about to welcome happiness.

他眼睜睜地看著余墨衝出馬路,護住簡忻,兩人一起被卡車撞飛。

He watched with his own eyes as Yumo rushed out into the streets and protected Jian Xin, both them sent flying by a truck.

余墨身受重傷,簡忻卻奇蹟般地只受了少許擦傷,可見他當時將簡忻護得有多緊。

Yumo was seriously injured while Jian Xin only had a few scrapes, it was clear on just how tightly he had protected her.

而他在這個時候,第一句問的還是簡忻。

And at that moment, the first thing he asked about was still Jian Xin.

簡忻在余墨懷裡泣不成聲,她此時估計也被余墨的奮不顧身所感動。

Jian Xin silently sobbed in Yumo’s embrace, she was probably also moved by Yumo’s sacrifice.

醫務人員匆匆趕來,余墨在被抬上擔架後,還不忘提醒他將自己的心臟移植給簡忻。

The medical personnel hurriedly rushed over. Yet Yumo did not forget to remind him to give his heart to Jian Xin even while lying on the stretcher.

這個傻瓜!簡忻從來沒愛過他,他為什麼要為她做到這種地步?

This idiot! Jian Xin had never loved him, why was he willing to do so much for her?

他全身是血,雙眼失明,連意識都模糊不清,卻始終記掛著簡忻。

His entire body was covered in blood, blinded and even his consciousness was hazy, yet all he worried about from beginning to end was Jian Xin.

簡沉鋒痛心疾首,第一次對自己從小寵愛的妹妹產生了恨意。

Jian Chenfeng was bitter and hateful, hate arose in his heart for the first time against him younger sister, someone who he had dote on since childhood.

兩人被送進急救室,簡沉鋒再次體驗到恐懼的滋味。

When the two were sent into the emergency room, Jian Chenfeng once again experienced fear.

更令人痛心的是,余墨主動放棄救治,要求醫生將心臟移植給他的妹妹。

What pained his heart even more was that Yumo gave up first, asking the doctor to transplant his heart into his younger sister.

簡沉鋒再也無法忍受,衝到急救室門口大吼:「江余墨,你給我聽著,好好活下去,我妹妹的生命不是你的責任!」

Jian Chenfeng could not longer tolerate it, he rushed to the entrance of the emergency room and shouted: “Jiang Yumo, listen to me, live! My younger sister’s life isn’t your responsibility!”

求你,好好活下去!不要輕易放棄,不要就這樣毫不留戀地離開。

I beg of you, please live! Don’t give up so easily, don’t just leave like this without regrets.

他不在乎余墨是否殘疾,他只想要他活著!

He didn’t care if Yumo was disabled or not, he just wanted him to live!

即使他最終選擇和簡忻在一起也無所謂,他什麼都不在乎了!

Even if he choose to be together with Jian Xin, he doesn’t care. He doesn’t care about anything anymore!

然而,余墨還是走了。將自己的心臟留給簡忻,了無牽掛地走了。

However, Yumo still left. He left his heart to Jian Xin and left without any worry.

簡忻的心臟移植手術很成功,簡沉鋒卻沒有絲毫喜悅。

Jian Xin’s heart transplant operation was very successful, but Jian Chenfeng did not feel happy at all.

她擁有了余墨的心,而他,一無所有。

She obtained Yumo’s heart while he, had nothing.

他沒有隱瞞自己對余墨的感情,簡忻也沒有與江東霖在一起。

He did not hide his feelings for Yumo, Jian Xin also did not continue to stay together with Jiang Donglin.

出院當天,她問自己:「哥,你恨我嗎?」

That day when they left the hospital, she asked him: “Brother, you hate me don’t you?”

他回答:「你是我妹妹,我不恨你。但我,永遠都不會原諒你。」

He replied: “You are my younger sister, I do not hate you. But I, will never forgive you.”

她和江東霖都是間接害死余墨的凶手。

She and Jiang Donglin were both the murders of indirectly killing Yumo.

他們讓自己永遠失去了一個值得他用一生去愛的人。

They caused him to forever lose a man he was willing to use his entire lifetime to love.

簡沉鋒疲憊地回到家,對著滿屋子已經凋謝枯萎的玫瑰,輕輕說出了那句遲來的告白:「余墨,我愛你。」

Jian Chenfeng tiredly returned home, faced the already withered rose in the house and softly spoke those words: “Yumo, I love you.”


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32 thoughts on “[HDS] Chapter 19: My Heart Beats For You (X)

  1. Kuro21 says:

    The Mc once again heroically died…poor poor Ml…if I were him I will probably go crazy and all Mc can say is his sorry…huhuhu💔😭😧😢

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  2. XD says:

    Why weaving? I mean, it’s interesting, yea, but … weaving… You can learn that on your own. Hell, I taught myself how to weave on my own.

    …I say this because I wanna imagine SK dancing for his future seme.

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  3. He learned to cook and play flute then he learns to sew? Is he going to learn how to be a good wifey? Cuz that’s what I’m seeing right now XD learning to be a good wifey for ML muahahahahaha~!!!

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  4. 💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧

    Those are tears.

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  5. Please, would you kindly tell us your release schedule for this novel, oh might translator-sama? This story is just too good! I wish they will leave happily ever after in the next arc. (In)patiently waiting for updates! <3

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    • Writing in my cellphone always ends up a disaster haha. Edit: *…mighty translator-sama! *live happily…

      I’d like to thank translator-sama again for the hard work! I love this novel!

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    • SnowTime says:

      Don’t have a schedule like usual, all depends on how I am /o/ been pretty good these days so speeding up hahaha…. kinda falling back into sleep deprived state though >_>

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  6. It’s not fair!!! It’s effing not fair!!!!!! Why did I discover this novel?! Why must it remain incompletely translated?? Why must the male lead suffer the pain of losing his love like this?! Why can’t I read Chinese? Answer me snowy why???

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  7. My withered chrysanthemum heart….. It’s broken and can’t bloom in this two lifetime…. 💧💧💧💧(╥﹏╥)(╥╯﹏╰╥)ง

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  8. raizel says:

    My heart is broken…I cried a nd cried…I really hope they have a happy ending. Fighting MC, live until the end and enjoy life with your sexy seme.

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  9. Ignobilia says:

    Heart breaking!

    And I know how tough a heart can be, I just held one yesterday…

    (Now comes the fun part when you guess the reason, am I a serie killer, a doctor, working in the black market, or simply a student having biology..)

    Thanks for the chapter! ♥️ 🔪💔

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  10. arifuify says:

    After reading ML’s POV, i got this thinking.. The one who suffers the most in this whole story will be the ML rather than the MC who will always have tragic deaths, it’s like the whole system is suppose to punished the ML, then i thought this ML’s true identity is MC’s best friend who keeps make MC his scapegoat to breaking up with his girlfriends, so he kinda got his karma through the system…😂.. Great story 😳

    Thanks for your hard work 💞

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  11. *bawls my eyes out*
    Aaah….! 😭😭😭😭
    You know, I love it that everyone is just doing their things and no one is overly blackened like in other novels when for example the worlds heroine turns into a beyond redemption villain…

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  12. I have only read two arcs but my tears couldn’t stop flowing _(;3/
    My colleagues sitting beside me were looking at me weirdly … And the bank teller too … (I went to the bank during lunch)

    Ah yeesh, wth… I cannot continue reading it today or my eyes will become swollen :v

    But thanks for ze great translation~~

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  13. FingersCrossed says:

    Pretty sure ML is the friend who had him cursed so I don’t mind him suffering a bit in the worlds before they get together.

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  14. solomaize says:

    All shinigami have special truck driving licence. All they need to do is identify the target and mow them down.
    For some reason I imagined Snow-sama smiling happily seeing the readers drown in tears… 〣( ºΔº )〣

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  15. Nyan says:

    ughhh my eyes keep tearing while I read this story. ughhh so painful. Poor Ravel/JCF. Poor everyone who has to pick up the pieces as Shang Ke has to die heroically every time.

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